I am a shadow slipping into the abyss
A part of me that will never leave
Just to remind me of who I have grown to be
Pulling me side to side
It won't forget me
I'm watching where I step
So I don't fall between the cracks
An anti-pattern in disbelief
I can't convince myself to be better than I am
I am the watcher
This is a severance
We are waiting for the signs
It'll take more than fortune and shooting stars
To keep me from falling
I unwrap myself
I dissolve
Into one-thousand pieces
I am a shadow
Slipping into the abyss
A part of me. Never leave.
Underwater
There is no chance of breathing inside this vessel
Blue lipped and anemic
We are constantly questioning our safety
So much pressure. We struggle
I just want to give in
Please help me
To keep the waters from crashing over me
This ship is sinking. My heart is palpitating
Your God won't save you
We bend and twist. From distant ends
Waves crash together blind without warning
A great deluge. Envelop everything
And all that's lost was taken
Oh, I cannot believe this is happening
Please just give me one more chance
Pressed within your trembling hopeful hands
Intangible. You're wasting time
Steel rivets snap and moan
Intangible
Your God won't save you
Now. The welds are breaking down
My hands are shaking now. The welds are breaking
Oh, what a shame
You can't hide
Crush the mast- envelop all
Your palms together won't keep us from sinking
Where have I been? Blearing pacific winds
Crossing foothills, constructing stories
Ruptured earth guiding me home
Romantic fault lines
A bridge's quake in my bones
A place we called home
A distance we have learned
Pull me in, and help me out (of this hemisphere)
I want to swim amidst the satellites
Sinking to the bottom. I exhale
Close my eyes- Disengage
Here. There is no there.
Give me (indication). Give me (separation)
With everything seeming pulse-less
Give me (indication). Give me (separation)
I'm drifting into oblivion
And there's no place I'd rather be
I'm drifting into oblivion
Isolated in black- My thoughts spin
My worlds divide
I am lost in space
Burning up in the atmosphere
When I finally come crashing down
Wrap my bones inside miracles
A safe place- I am finally home
Pull me in, and help me out (of this hemisphere)
I want to swim amidst the satellites
Sinking to the bottom. I exhale
Close my eyes- Disengage
Here. There is no there.
Give me (indication). Give me (separation)
With everything seeming pulse-less
Give me (indication). Give me (separation)
I'm drifting into oblivion
Now I'm slipping away.
The sway of distance
A suffering march
Lives tremble on and on
We usher burdens that see us through
Blinding light emanates guiding me from within
For I am just part of who I was back then
Where we were. When this all began
Inside this vision I am no longer in control of my own life
Sickened by surroundings. Occupied and weak
Tangled and desperate I expand
I am paper thin. Lines etched and carved from misery
Somebody help me please. Because I can never leave this place
I am afraid of becoming you
I'll deconstruct my self
For I am just a part of who I was
Where we were. When this all began
Something inside me. I cannot fix
So we begin again
So send me to my grave
Lives tremble on and on
But we are just a perception of a common theme
We are something more
I pretend I am better
I disconnect
Searching and believing
That we are something more
I pretend I am better
I disconnect
Misery- I wanted to forget you
But five years later I have grown
I have regret
You were better deserved. But we all learn
Hands to broken mirrors. We shattered our design
You were always so easy for me. To leave in ruins
Those nine summers we burned together
Were disparate and beautiful
Strange our thoughts can take us
And I can still feel the warmth
Coursing through lungs. Escaping in my thoughts
Our hands. To broken mirrors. We shattered
I hope that this letter finds you in drift
Provokes shared memories and you accept my apology
I was young and constantly desolate
A spinning picture of grey skies
I'm holding nothing back
My thoughts provoked this heart attack
And tonight I go on display to the world
But we silently know, this is between you and I
I hope this letter finds you in drift
I hope this finds you in drift
[feat. Nick Wellner]
We disappear from our thoughts and sounds
Our features- abrasive
So many things we overlook
Is there something that we don't know?
That over time. We're over time
Wrought with dysfunction, and callous minds
So take the knife within my heart
Sharpen it with water and virtue
Oh, the mystery. Of what we wished we knew
Oh the misery. There's so much more that I could have
That I could give
Falling faster, gaining speed
Everything around me wraps me in light, precious life
Something we seem to forget, I can feel something real burning inside
Something we seem to forget, I can feel it burning inside of me
Wind exerts my lungs. The influence of my being
Weightlessness. A beautiful affection
Force its hold
Against my deep breath
Oh, the mystery. Of what we wished we knew
Oh the misery. There's so much more that I could have
That I could give
In the twisting, I see myself
Pixelated. Construed. I am reaching out
For something, for me to hold on to
But I never do. Failing- I never will
Some things just do not exist
And some days I'll be the evoked of
The hope for a landing, for safety
But the synapse fires, exploding
And this is letting go
Life- this is a lesson that we don't sign up for
But we fatefully learn
And as I grow old
Time will break me apart
From stem to bough, and my heart to reason
I will become the dirt of which I began
Distracted by imperfection we are covered in rust
Hopeless and distant, we sway side to side
From season to season, we fall apart
So hold this in your hand, and don't let go
These are the things that we live for
Some things just do not exist
And some days I'll be the evoked of dissonant.
But we still try
Prudent through our brothers' eyes
Back at the start
We lost our direction
We are covered in rust
Hopeless and distant, we sway side to side
Distracted by imperfection
We fall apart
Consign myself away
I've built myself with molten steel
My skeletal hands are wired and worn
I'm becoming a compound so I push and pull
Electric currents replace blood cells
Eccentric circuits my soul connects
Spheric and strong
I no longer break down
I cannot rest
My eyes illuminate against the glass
Abstaining focal shifts to palindrome lines
Mimic expression. Translucent model of progression
I look out, escape is granted. Free myself
Unresponsive- a mechanic I work inline
Scanning faces I learn the nothingness inside
A binary heart beat. A digital visionary
Escape is granted, and in this moment, I free myself
As each memory fades, in this emptiness. I free myself
Your hand reaches out. I am reaching back
Where do we begin
We are lost, we are polluted
We are lost, we are polluted
We are lost, we are polluted
Where do we begin
When everything is wrong we just forget
Move along and we play pretend
Surround your life with silver and gold
Your tinsel dreams and the make believe
Deconstructed and paralyzed
So slowly somehow I am evaporating
We dream to be the lesser
A malign separate existence
We be little ourselves to a lesser
Being our dreams are not our dreams
Cogitation a distant fragment
Separate me from the whole
My thoughts are now unchained
And it seems that in everything
We want isn't anything we need
And all the signals
We seem to have taken for granted
We are lost, we are polluted
Into the grey a wolf amongst ravens
Lines flicker and twist descending
A distorted creation from nothing
So monstrous, so murderous
Lay your body down
And separate were shedding skin
Scale by scale the filth replaces it
You crystalize the world around you
Your aim for the weak
A twisting sleep breaks inside of me
A sickness you live in
I begin to break away
Please set me free
I will remain amongst the filth
Conceal myself in this residuum
I will remain amongst the filth
Asking where do we begin
We are lost, we are polluted
We are lost, we are polluted
We are lost, we are polluted
We are lost, where do we begin
We are lost, we are polluted
We are lost, we are polluted
We are lost, we are polluted
Into the grey a wolf amongst ravens
Collapse
We fold in difficult fashion, pinions clipped and forgotten
So we grow fray and suffer the cold
Like a shiver inside our own reason
Your feigned regard a frozen lake
I’ll leave you trapped, I hope your winter never ends
Replicated errors, we smash against these glaciers of mistakes
Replicated errors, and as summers melt we just
Find ourselves drowning in the flood
We melt away at the summers heat, stuck between
Our own ideas in paralyzed nights we kick and turn in searing waves
Like hollow shells, dread echoes inside
Reverberate in infinity, reverberate in infinity
Replicated errors, we smash against these glaciers of mistakes
Replicated errors, and as summers melt we just find ourselves
Drowning in the flood
We smash against these glaciers of mistakes
And find ourselves drowning in the flood
Smash against these glaciers of mistakes
And find ourselves drowning in the flood
And in the end I will show you that this life is only madness
Can we filter out the toxicity and find worth in the static?
We build and build
We forget the model
We design the madness and we paint it gold
Swarming and spiraling burning at both endsv
A blur on the horizon
We fail to keep site over and over again
Open your palms up resist the current
[2x]
I am not your fathers son
Lost in the static
I am not your fathers son
Lost in the static
And you'll find me at the end
Come dig me up, wipe the earth from my bones
With pressure, we creak and we bend
Crimson feet trample our joints
We splinter and break
We suffer again
We become a path others use to take
A distant undertaking to suffer the same
I'll stand right beside you
We slog side by side
Become a path others use to take
Lost in the static
Just to suffer the same
Come dig me up, wipe the earth from my bones
Hold me up and join me on the horizon
Kill what's left of the inner glow
Giving up the ghost
Growing cold
We never begin (we never begin)
Our own feet trample our joints
We burn at both ends
A blur on the horizon
We become a path others use to take
A distant undertaking to suffer the same
I'll stand right beside you
We slog side by side
(Lost in the static, lost in the static)
We build and build we forget the model
We design madness and paint it gold
[2x]
I am not your fathers son
Lost in the static
I am not your fathers son
Lost in the static
And you'll find me at the end
Come dig me up, wipe the earth from my bones
We feel so much better here below
Down here where the eyes are yellow and gold
We rot inside out, we crack and flake
Nothing is better than deep down below
My whole mouth brimming of leaves, submerged and gasping for air
Let the earth swallow me whole
Fertile graves bury me engulf my bones
Eyes full of stone as they close
Intertwine with the sediment as we sink into the mire
Oh I sense a confused declaration
We beat the horse with a sort of unknown conviction
And nothing ever matters, we sink into the mire
So I lay here tangled in vines and a mouth brimming with leaves
There's nothing to eat but she fertilizes me
We feel so much better here below
Down here where the eyes are yellow and gold
We rot inside out, we crack and flake
Nothing is better than deep down below
Do you know what it's like to be inside separate from life
A shallow grave for benevolence
Submerged we grasp for light but none that truly exists
Better then, nothing now, you feel the earth surround you as you fall
Inside a new life animates itself
We feel so much better here below
Down here where the eyes are yellow and gold
We rot inside out, we crack and flake
Nothing is better than deep down below
We feel so much better here below
Down here where the eyes are blank and cold
We rot inside out, we fast decay
Nothing is better than deep down below
And I was over taken,
over whelmed and out of control
Visitors on parallel trails,
unknowingly bound
Blue solitaries deluge,
though I felt that I could swim
Sight kept on the skyline so we become builders of ships
Aiming to be forgotten,
waiting for the rain to regress
I’ll never look back,
nothing really mattered ‘til now
Decades waiting to be caught in your wind
And when your voice gave notes it pushed my sails
We found safety glowing within ourselves
Just two children waiting at the window for the rain to stop
We found safety glowing within ourselves
Just two children waiting at the window for the rain to stop
Decades became wading but we were never meant for a watery grave
Trapped in trivial downpour,
decades became wading
But we were never meant for a watery grave
In solace, finding our footing,
stepping out onto dry land
Dawning a life of worth discovering a glow within
Blue solitaires deluge broke down walls and I gave in
Everything and anything I ever wanted really never meant
There’s so much greater gifts two give,
we finally found a way
Everything and anything I ever wanted really never meant
There’s so much greater gifts to give
Never meant for a watery grave
We found safety glowing within ourselves
Just two children waiting at the window for the rain to stop
We found safety glowing within ourselves
Just two children waiting at the window for the rain to stop
We were never meant for a watery grave
Ever-flowing white ghosts form on my fingertips
Balanced in peace,
dancing in light
My grip blooms and blossoms forever more
Incubated, in silence we find tranquility
Distilled into memories,
we shut off,
retired among the infinite
We aim for balance standing on cannonballs, outside the battlefields
We aim for balance standing on cannonballs
We slam on clay and dig deep,
and labyrinth trenches around craters we call home
Such an amazing defeat
RAGE, I will put this all back inside of me
Ghosts of my past lift me up,
carry me through blinding night
RAGE, find me beneath the iron mines,
below 10,000 lakes,
find me beyond the pines
Now face your back to the storm,
forget the shelters you would seek before
Let your feet hit the ground,
don't look back to where the siren sounds
We aim for balance standing on cannonballs, outside the battlefield
We aim for balance standing on cannonballs
We slam on clay and dig deep,
and labyrinth trenches around craters we call home
Such an amazing defeat,
we misplace dreams and study braille throughout the dark
And there’s hope for a better future,
and there's hope for a better life
RAGE, I will put this all back inside of me
Ghosts of my past lift me up,
carry me through blinding night
RAGE, join me beneath the iron mines,
below 10,000 lakes,
join me beyond the pines
Bound with iron chain,
solitary feed me to the grey
We dig fields of apathy,
excavating endless burial mounds
Heavy lies the ground
I get what I give, so I die where I dig
Never go home,
just tunnel a hole inside this field of apathy
Never giving what I could,
I get what I give
Never wanting more so I die where I dig
Never wanting more so I die where I dig
Illusionist grant us safety nets made of your decaying sutures and of
Fraying string,
wave your white gloves,
enrapture me and send us ease
Leave us all to rot inside the facade
A solitary man ragged and worn
I cross out days on the wall and I beg for mercy
Were begging for mercy,
ragged and worn
Beg for mercy, beg
I get what I give,
so I'll die where I dig
I get what I give,
so I'll die where I dig
Sweeping barricades red with rust
Quiet this mind abandoned fields of thought
Searching for meaning,
wandering in opaque
Closing my eyes, and let the color in
Quiet this mind ignite these fields of thought
Everything around me cold and still,
searching for feeling screaming
Open my eyes and let the color in
We venture through time blind
Running hands against the walls
Everything around me slowing down
I feel a cold wind pierce through the wall
Abandon these fields of thought,
try to quiet this mind
We'll serve a lifetime of terror inside
Wandering through these catacombs
Sweeping barricades red with blood
Quiet this mind, ignite these fields of thought
Searching for feeling,
screaming in opaque
Closing my eyes colorless
We venture through time blind,
running hands against the walls
Forgotten still searching the deeper we go
We venture through time blind,
running hands against the walls
We will be forgotten inside these catacombs
Truth will always find me,
I'll disregard the meaning
Caught with my head underground wide eyed and afraid to look up
Nightmares replicating on concrete sleep, trapped inside a feverish dream
Waiting for the weight I'm carrying to adjust
Waiting for something to wake me up
I've dug these up on my own,
I’ve dug these up on my own
I will stay in these catacombs
Eyes flare, this glow becomes our lanterns
We are searching for truth,
but find dust and dirt
Though sight falls hard,
trudge headfirst and forget what matters
Caught in the trample of the tow,
bones scrape against the asphalt
Gaze into the depth and try to find the fire within
I try to pick up the pieces,
try to pick up the pieces
Pick up mud and re invent these limbsv
Caught in tow we are a sight of endless marching and swaying lights
We leave lumber for the need - rebuild this broken body
Lumber for the need - rebuild this broken soul
Try to pick up the pieces,
but timber becoming decay
Excavate bone and sculpt mud into limbs,
following the sequence
Leave a little bit of ourselves behind with every step
Broken teeth fractured and spread out
Blending in the scene hands swell and branches break becoming lumber for the need
This glow becomes our lanterns,
though sight falls hard
Trudge headfirst and forget what matters
Gaze the depth and try to find fire within pick up mud and re invent these broken limbs
Forcefully held down,
friction burns our bones that scrape against the asphalt
Forcefully held down,
fragments of our broken teeth spread out around us
Forcefully held down try to pick up all the pieces,
become decay
I’ve watched the lamp lights fade,
a flare trembles and quivers that kept me safe
Warm concrete streets,
I used to call home
Laid in brick and broken stone so a merchant I'll stay
Staying caught in the sway of the break
Set aflame, set aflame,
set aflame
Oh the sand covers me,
grains the colors of ash
They follow me here,
I'll never leave, anchors of memories
Melting iron made of hours forged through eras
Hanging fire trapped in glass bulbs
Bludgeon toxic burdens and unearth my roots
Flip me over and set me free
I’ve watched the lamp lights fade,
a flare trembles and quivers that kept me safe
Warm concrete streets,
I used to call home
Laid in brick and broken stone so a merchant I'll stay
Staying caught in the sway of the break
Set aflame, set aflame,
set aflame
The sunlight fades and we still feel safe
Settled like worn beacons fought in the flow
Lift the tide,
and let the stoic moon still guide me
Charmed by glow we follow and forget to even ask why we're here
Become the practice by accident,
we become the practice by accident
As time flows by it phases our lights,
castaway, castaway
Swept away not forgotten,
so we will set aflame caught in the break
All will be set aflame, all set aflame