We are the fucking Apex
We know where our ground is
We are the essence of what once was
But we will always be
We are here to stay
We will hold our
We will hold our, ground
We are here to
Stay
And your voice is merely a whisper
We go against the odds
You go against the odds
I remember when
You told me you cared
But its quite easy to see
Youre fucking worthless
So sell yourself
For everything you're worth
Sell yourself
My miscommunication
Got what I wanted
No more of your face
With my new expectations
This will never happen again
Go fucking die
Ive watched you fall too long
And not cared at all
This has been my burden for far too long
Far too long.
Take a step back
These surroundings are signs
Where do you think that
You can go
This is no place for you
I'm on your side
You are so much better than this
I'm on your side
We can breathe on our own ground
This world could be ours
If you would just
Listen to what I have to say
I have been down these streets
That as of now you call your home
And I promise, I promise
It wont be this way forever
Consider this a new beginning
I see, the smile behind your eyes
You cannot hide from me
Maybe, someday you'll notice
That this all happened for a reason
This all happens for what?
This all happens
This all happens
This all happens for a reason
My world is changing to the
colors of their negative
My body's weightless in your gravity filled world
So why
Wish this bliss would ever let me go
Based on my optics, I'd say it's safe to say
My line is crossed as far as
Pushing my limits
Can't you see
These streets
All appear to me as Fantasy
Things you would never believe
On the outside
There is no hope
Broken Tides
I prefer a place where the picture is perfect
No longer is my life your object
My own breed of reality
My lost sense of time
Brings forth another realm of thought
This conscience is for now numb so,
Close your eyes and let the world embrace you.
Isn't this what we dream for
To open your eyes
We will tear, these walls down.
Don't let today waste away
It only comes once
The way the sun shines against your face
Is just the way she speaks
We are all waiting for
Her to smile
Because when she cries
These are the days that we stay inside
And when she screams
She lights up the sky
If only we had listened to her oceans
We would have seen a change in tides
And now there's one thing left to say
As all these days seem to waste away
I'm sorry
I wish I could let you
Breathe
Exhale, all of the poison
That we have brought to this Earth
Exhale the, poison
We have brought to this Earth
Don't let today waste away
It only comes once
The way the sun shines against your face
Is just the way she speaks
Don't let today waste away
It only comes once
The way the sun shines against your face
Is only for today.
My eyes are frozen
Stuck dancing with shadows
Another night spent sitting with silence
Screaming my name
And once again you've left me breathless
Pondering what could have been
These possibilities once were endless
But I'm afraid we’ve come to the end
And I will never know
And it’s all because of you
Forget the sunshine
I'd rather scream with the moon
Tonight we silence
All those who have held us back
Never forget who stands behind you
Next time you reach up
You'll find nothing
To hold you up
So once again you've left me breathless
Pondering what could have been
These possibilities once were endless
But I know this is the end
I will never know
And it's all because of you
Tonight we silence
All of those who have held us back
Never forget who stands behind you
Tonight we silence
All those who held us back
Never forget who stands behind you
[Instrumental]
Just for once
If you would stray away, then you would see
These walls have two sides
The illusion that they call
Home
I do not see the point
In taking the life out of living
I dont believe Ive ever seen, anything as beautiful
As the gift of living my life free
There is a part of me
That Ive left here
This means, part of me is lost
Forever
All these days blend to one
Is this really worth remembering
All that's lost, can be found
In a place already forgotten
These obstacles
Will only hold me
For so much longer
We will not walk down a path we did not choose
The sky no longer labeled as....
The sky no longer labeled as limits
And this all seems like a dream
A memory, balanced by distance
Your mind may not believe it but
Is reality really realistic?
I have been here more than once before
These shapes are more than just spaces
To me
Its more of a psychological mind fuck
In the beginning, I could not tell
The difference from whats real
And what disintegrates
But now where I stand
I can see it all
From where I stand
I can see it all
Break these bonds
I fucking hate the way it sounds when you speak
Waiting for the day
You turn around so I can watch you
Go
My sanctum may be shattered into what used to be
I will make this balance sustain
My bonds may all be broken
The lifeless seeds in me
Hopefully it can set me free
Set me free
Bring me fourth unto
A place where the curtains
Never draw
Break this cycle
Be careful for we show no mercy
And I dont want this to be my home
Its all too familiar, this cant be home
I dont want this to be my home
Nothing ever changes
This cant be home
These lights are black
This Heaven is composed
By the Fallen
Take it all back
Now it's time to breathe
Your first breath
Welcome to the real world
No longer are you held down
By these imaginary boundaries
The time is now
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me
Looking down at the earth?
Is when you call yourself King
That's when you call yourself King
ee? I told you
You can't love a monster
You can't even look me
Straight in my eyes
Why are you afraid?
Does the simple thought of my
Being alive make you pray for the exit?
I am a monster
I'm not sick
I am the disease
I have
Fallen in love
With the
Feeling of
Being filled with all this toxic
Being filled with all this toxic
I am numb
My vision spiraled into cycles of darkness
What I've become
Is something more than I thought I could be
In order to find the truth
You must make the questions
To become more than a follower
You must make the answers
The answers
Waking up on the other side of the sunrise
My diolation will stay the same
I've grown accustomed to these cold winds
Sending shivers down my back
This is how I live
This is how I will die
You can tell me I'm sick
I still think you're full of shit
My serenity is in the empty half
Of the hourglass
And when the time runs out
I will turn the tables
We are no different than the ones you stand by
On the outside
The differences between you and I
Lie inside
A life
Consisting of a constant high
At least I'll always know
That I'm alive
At least I know I'm alive
When will you realize that you take all this too seriously
Live life by the owl's call
Fuck the ones that try to tell you how the system breathes
Live life by the owl's call
My serenity is in the empty half
Of the hourglass
And when the time runs out
I will turn the tables
It's so sad to me
The worst part of you
Took away the best part of me, away the best part of me
I used to tell myself
That I would never become someone else,
But I thought I told myself
I was going to be somebody
It's not coincidence
Things played out this way
I know you had this planned from the start
Luckily for me
I can see right through you now
I can see right through you no
Tell me again how my life should be
My eyes don't see the way you see
Why does my mind play all of these tricks on me
Yes, I know now
My decisions
Have led me down this path with no escape
Your nightmares
Are only my dreams
This is home now, at least that's how it seems
Have you ever walked with one who wanders
This is forever
For so long, I've been searching for
The other half of my heart
But now I see, the other side of me
Isn't quite who I thought I was
I am so lost
Inside of my own head
Tell me
Who do you think that you are
Walking over others' bridges
Like you built them yourself
You
Ruined me
You
Took it
All away
Now stay gone
[feat. Becka Graham]
This, this is your moment
So take your first step through the door
This is what happens when you ignore
The ones who say dreams aren't worth fighting for
Every mistake
Every single moment of regret
It can all be left behind
If you have the strength to let go
If you have the strength
To let go
I know that the hours seem like days
With my heads in my hands I beg
For my peace,
My peace of mind
I see as
The days pass
And I see
You forgetting
My face and
It hurts so much
I cannot explain
How much I wish
This would go away
Do you see
The way that things could be
Or do you only notice
The way that they are
I was lost
In a place with no light
And somewhere down this path
You turned away, away, away
I'm wondering where you've gone
I'm wondering
I'm wondering
I'm wondering
Where you've gone
I'm wondering
I'm wondering
I'm wondering
Where you've gone
This will not be
The last time you see me
I promise
This will not be
The last time you see me
I promise
To be honest, the truth is I’m afraid
I fear losing the only thing I’ve ever held so close
The fact is you never cared
Half as much for me as I did for you.
No matter what you say,
You’re filling your head with lies
Telling yourself you’ll be here,
When you’re not anywhere to be found
How can you just close your eyes
And pretend I’m a ghost,
When I am haunted by the thought of you
To be honest, I wish I was like you.
I wish I could forget these memories
Did you not see me falling down
Into endless shades of grey
You watched without taking a step
I just wish you could disappear
But maybe I’m the one who turns to smoke
Maybe this is my destiny
Maybe this is my destiny
I am not afraid to let the world know
You ripped my soul from my fucking chest
I have opened my eyes
Only to see you are my enemy
The candle is burning out
Is there any escape?
And if there is, can you show me the way?
I don't want to play this game
I just want to disappear
And if you take my hand
Well I can show you who I really am
Wave away to all the pain
Were bringing all the light back
This candle is burning out
You put the blame on me
To take the weight off your burden
Someday you will see
You can't escape fate
Is there any escape?
And if there is, can you show me the way?
I don't want to play this game
I just want to disappear
And if you take my hand
Well I can show you who I really am
Wave away to all the pain
Were bringing all the light back
The reason
You are alone
Is because you left us all behind
I know
That you know why
We turned our backs for the last time
s house is an empty home
The thought process of an abandoned child
Left alone to sort out all the answers
To questions he has never heard
And when he falls asleep
He cannot dream
It is only a fantasy of a brighter place
Only a figment of a taunting imagination
(Let the sleep last forever)
How do I seem to fall to the floor
Hopeless and broken
Every time that I convince my mind
The other side is sunshine
I'm so sick of letting myself
(Letting myself, letting myself)
Be a victim to your bars and chains
I let myself walk away from who I was
Just to see if you could love me
And all I found
Was this empty path
Left alone
To walk on my own
A nightmare
Is only inspiration
Well here we are again
Same song, same dance
Will this day ever not replay
Stuck in a cycle
Known as the only way
Why won't you open your mind
Everything they told you was all a lie
There's nothing wrong with your eyes
What you see is simply
The other side of the spectrum
The other side of the spectrum
It feels like everything
That you say to me
You're trying to force feed
Down my throat
Give it your best shot
I know I will not
Let your words be believed
Everyone that I ever
Have put my trust into
Has let me down except
The ones I consider blood
I'd stand through any storm
Just to show you that I'll never leave again
And that nothing could ever take me away
The stranger in the mirror
Has gone forever
And for the first time, for the first time
I know who I am now
No matter how much it hurts
I can see it in your eyes
You're becoming invisible
Do you even exist?
Do you even exist anymore?
I can see it in your eyes
You're becoming invisible
Do you even exist?
Do you even exist anymore?
Do you even exist anymore?
Do you even exist anymore?
Do you even exist anymore?
Do you even exist anymore?
pseudo smiles, and empty eyes..
I think I've been hypnotized
shallow hearts and narrow minds
can't you see?
you're blind
your eyes are like kaleidoscopes..
I've been sleeping with my hands around my throat
please show me a way,
to see through
the smoke..
I'm falling into patterns I thought
I broke
and I wish you would whisper my name through the wind
one more time..
I
miss
hearing
the sound
one thought that will never fade,
is how we promised we would never change
I wish I could forget,
but these scars are here to stay
and the memories in my head,
I know won't ever go away
I've been here..
a thousand times before
I stand near..
the edge, with hope to fall
I've been here..
a thousand times before
I stand near..
the edge
with hope to fall
your eyes are like kaleidoscopes
your eyes are like kaleidoscopes..
How many times can we say these things?
And keep pretending that it never meant anything..
Our minds wonder, but I always knew
When I close my eyes,
All I see
Is
You.
What hurts the most
Is having to know
Words and scars are all I have to show
I put together these letters with pen and paper
Only to write,
Songs
Of how
We were so close
Wherever I go,
I don't want to go.
Without you
Without you
How can you say
You have nothing to say?
How can you be
At a loss for words?
We fit together like puzzle parts
Nothing in this world
Could tear us apart
How many times can we say these things?
And keep pretending that it never meant anything.
Our minds wonder, but I always knew
When I close my eyes,
All I see
Is
You.
Wherever I go,
I don't want to go.
Without you
Without you
A feeling I can't help but chase
It seems somehow I've lost my place
I was gone
Too long
Now I've been erased
Not even I
Recognize my face
Not even I
Recognize my face.
All these places are never the same.
I can't believe I've grown so deranged
You haunt me anyway I run,
I'll never change
Into what you've become
Wherever I go,
I don't want to go.
Without you
I never knew
You were more than a voice that made its home inside my head
Now I'm carving scars into my arms
To remember what it feels like to feel anything.
That was only the start
My addiction to tearing myself apart
I'm in love with hating myself
Its the only real thing I've ever felt
I hold a gun to the head of God
Please tell me where i went wrong
Every single step I take
Leads me right back to the same mistakes
I've been here before
But i adore the pain keep coming back for more.
I bleed just to see
If there's anything left inside of me
We are a perfect fit
A sadist and a masochist
I've never been good enough
I am never good enough.
I keep seeing
The same things
Over and over and over again
I will never understand,
How the lowest people always get the upper hand
And as time ticks by
I sit and wonder why..
I ever gave a fuck about anything
Watch me fall asleep
Neck deep
Hanging straight down,
Tied up
...to the fucking ceiling
My pigmentation is turning black
Now I know that I'll never be turning back
In this world..
Where hell means home
I will come up,
From the bottom
Through sticks
And stones
It's all your fault
I've become so hollow
An apparition
Of my own ghost
I wont ever
Crawl down to your level
I'd rather
Rot in limbo
Sit here,
And play this game
Let's skip the introduction
And say no names
My own..
Is my own
In rooms of thousands
I still stand alone
Why am I
The only one
With eyes as empty as the ocean
ㅤ
I knew I should have known
I wish I never let you see what I've shown
I've lost
All
Hope
I was born to
Be alone
I knew I should have known
I wish I never let you see what I've shown
I've lost
All
Hope
I was born to
Be alone
I know I'm a failure in your fucking eyes
But it doesn't matter to me cause you're fucking blind
My entire life has been a waste of time
Falling for the same tricks in a different disguise
This is my shadow self
Ever since I can remember you look out for yourself
I must be dreaming
Because for once it seems I'm seeing clearly
Did you think that you could just leave me here to die
I don't know what I did to deserve this
You don't even treat me like a fucking person
I have no heart
I have no fucking heart
Everything I touch always falls apart
Why fight for something that's not meant to be
I'm done being treated like the dirt underneath your feet
Fill my eyes with flies and cut my throat so I can't breathe
I'm so sick of the tangled web we weave
I'd give anything to rid me of these memories
THIS IS MY SHADOW SELF!
How could i have stole your spirit
You don't even have a soul
Lost in an empty vessel
Claiming connection with self
But your being is artificial
How does it feel to be so hollow?
Tongue tied by a language of lies
Drop the God complex
You are no better than the rest of us
Come back to the fucking slums
Something so small can spiral out of control
Before you even notice
It becomes your whole world
What am I to do?
I've lost my path
I never thought to
Fear the after math
Come back to the bottom
You forgot where you've come from.
If i could die tonight
I wouldn't think twice
I would take the step
Right over the edge
Eternally I have wondered why
As all of the days go by
I'm always the one who's left behind
I'm always the one who gets left behind!
I can see you forgot about me
I'm nothing more than a memory
The ghost of half the man i used to be
We fell apart in perfect symmetry
We fell apart in perfect symmetry
Am I nothing
More than a figment of my own imagination
Never ending
Thought left circling in contemplation
A wandering soul without any destination
Am..I..Despair?
I've developed infatuations
Intertwined by hallucinations
They have become my only inspiration
I realize life's foundation
Has become manipulation
No one..really...cares!
A moment i have waited for
With such anticipation
Ill exhale my last breath
With no sense of hesitation
My aura has lost all of its illumination
If you wish to vanish
Follow my demonstration
I can show you how to disappear
I can show you how to disappear
I am nothing
More than a figment of my own imagination
Never ending
Thought left circling in contemplation
A wandering soul without any destination
I am despair
I am nothing
I am despair
It's all inside of your head!
We are nothing but illusions
Lost inside our own delusions
We're victims of our own seclusion
It's all inside of my head!
Almost like déjà vu
All of my dreams in the hue of blue
Believing all the lies I wish were true
I know we've made choices
We wish we didn't choose
But you will always have me
Even when I don't have you
You are the sun, and I am your moon
I am your artist; you are my muse
I've been lost
Inside of dreams I see with open eyes
I've grown fond of
The bliss from this eclipse between body and mind
Hollow bodied entity
Won't you walk with me
Show me something that I've never seen
I've lost the line between reality and my dreams
Something so shallow
Can sink so low
You are the sun, and I am your moon
I am your artist; you are my muse
You will always have me...
Even when I don't have you....
Slave to insomnia
Dreamless and sleepless
Counting the stars
Just to watch them fall
Prisoner of phobia
Afraid of my shadow
I never know
Who I'll be tomorrow
I still remember the way
You used to say my name
As if I were your own
As if this ever meant
Anything at all
I'd give anything to go back to that moment
Even if only for a moment
How can I forget
The only things that I want to remember
This is an endless endeavor
This is pretending we never said forever
You looked into my eyes
And promised we would die together
I'd give anything to go back to that moment
Even if only for a moment
It was always my greatest fear
Everyone I love would disappear
Just like the color clear...
It was always my greatest fear
Everyone I love would disappear
Just like the color clear