I've been praying to God that this mirror would just break,
so I don't have to see the mistake God made in me.
If only I could plant the seed that would bare the weight
of a thousand leaves to set me free; maybe then I would believe.
How many times can the sinner sin?
How many times can I be born again?
How many times can the sinner sin?
How many times can I be born again?
And, I've become all I used to be;
I'm tired of chasing identity.
And, I've become all I hate to see,
but I'm still chasing.
I fear that this is as good as it gets,
lost in the knowledge between grace and regret.
I fear that this is as good as it gets,
but still the questions persist:
How many times can the sinner sin?
How many times can I be born again?
How many times can the sinner sin?
How many times can I be born again?
Oh
Oh God, Oh God, I've fallen off.
Oh God, Oh God, where can I find Your love?
Oh God, Oh God, I've fallen off.
Oh God, Oh God, where can I find Your love?
Oh God, Oh God, I've fallen off.
Oh God, Oh God, where can I find Your love?
Oh God, Oh God, I've fallen off.
Oh God, Oh God, where can I find Your love?
And, I've become all I used to be;
I'm tired of chasing identity.
And, I've become all I hate to see,
but I'm still chasing.
I've been praying to God:
Will you come remake me?
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Day by day
Open arms come to carry my away
For I am only a creature
With the need for empty grace
I am alive through this
but there is no mine in this
I am alive through this
but there is no mine
I am alive through this
but there is no mine in this
I am alive through this
but there is no my
Oh!
It's never easy
Waking up
Just to die to myself again
Kill the man I am
Kill the man I am
Kill the man I am
To don't rest until his body's end
For I am a creature
In you my creator
For I am simply a sinner
Seeking my Savior
Can you feel the regret?
In a place where nobody goes
A place where nobody knows
Can you see the secrets?
That keep me up every night
That steal the love from your sight
Can you feel the regret?
In a place where nobody goes
In a place where nobody knows
Can you see the secrets?
That keep me up every night
That keep me up every night
Heaven waits for all of me
For the day I can give everything
Buried flesh restored spirit
But until then this is my Deathwish
Kill the man I am
Kill the man I am.
I've dug my feet in the sand;
mistook it for solid ground again.
What are my words to you?
And I've made my promises,
and I've seen them fall to the ground.
This kingdom I have built falls now to the ground.
I let my tongue turn silver to make my heart into gold,
but the only thing I convinced myself
was that I could make diamonds from coal.
Pages and pages of whom I'm meant to be;
I can't seem to find the will to
let these words set me free.
Somewhere along the way I forgot
that it wasn't all about me.
I let the man that I was determine
the man that I needed to be.
My identity seems lost in the choices
I have made and I can't believe I
still go on making the same mistakes.
Is the man that I am the man
I was intended to be?
I've dug my feet in the sand;
mistook it for solid ground again.
What are my words to you?
And I've made my promises
and I've seen them fall to the ground.
This kingdom I have built falls now to the ground.
I've lost the way to my word.
A promise made is an action unheard.
I lost the way to my word.
I lost!
I lost!
A promise made is an action unheard.
I lost!
I lost!
I used my voice to portray pictures of
fiction to anyone that would look my
way anything to get them to stay.
If actions speak louder than words
then surely I can't be heard.
I've dug my feet in the sand;
mistook it for solid ground again.
What are my words to you?
When was the last time
I stopped to think about my life
and the choices that I've made?
When was the last time
I stopped to think about my life
and the choices that I've made?
What are these hands?
Were they made to destroy?
Have I fallen like the rest?
In secret but nonetheless.
With every step my feet they stray,
yet I hold onto your words to find the way.
Lead the way!
Lead the way!
So lead the way!
Take this man who stands before you
and tries to adore you
but gets lost from time to time.
I just feel like giving up
and saying goodbye, but I pray for better days
and I know they're not too far away.
So take these words I say;
bring life back into these ways.
And though I hear your voice it's
miles away (miles away.) What are these hands?
What were they made for?
Have I truly found solace in the arms of my Savior?
Where is the great peace?
Is it inside of me?
I am weaker than I know.
I am weaker than these virtues show.
I am weaker than I know.
I am weaker than these virtues show.
I am weak, so take the rest of me!
So take these words I say; bring life back into these ways.
And though I hear your voice it's miles away (miles away.)
Why can't I make it all
go away?
If dying is gain let Jesus take the rest of me?
Why can't I make it all go away?
If dying is gain let Jesus take the rest of me?
Why can't I make it all go away?
If dying is gain let Jesus take the rest of me?
End.
You've created a gap only searching for what you cannot see,
yet you still lack the balance of faith and reality.
Hear Him speak: "I Am what is and what will always be!
I Am the I Am. I fill the gap in between.
I Am the I Am. Call out to me! Call out to me!"
Speak to me!
Will you come will you raise the dead?
Will you come will you raise the dead?
These dry bones they have made their bed;
Bring us back to life!
"Show me death. Show me the grave.
I have conquered all in my way!"
Bring us back to life!
"I am the Word.
I am the Shepherd of the Lambs.
These dry bones will live again.
By my breath, you will breathe again!"
Let your peace conquer us.
Let your wind sweep us up.
Let your voice speak to us.
Speak to me!
Will you come will you raise the dead?
Will you come will you raise the dead?
These dry bones they have made their bed;
Bring us back to life!
Will you come and raise the dead? ("I will come")
Will you come and bring us back? ("I will bring you back")
These dry bones they have made their bed;
bring us back to life ("I will bring you back to life")!
"These dry bones, live again!
By my breath, breathe again!"
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We're running in circles of discontentment
with the constant feeling that we haven't arrived yet.
We're running in circles; they're never ending.
We've lost the meaning of truth beyond our repetitions.
Just keep running!
We've all been taught that the gallows were made of gold,
but what separates the victim from the innocent soul?
Who died and made them king?
We fall in line and fall in "love" with irony they've built,
but in our hearts we know there's more than slaughter for the kill.
So, tell me there's more!
Breaking every boundary unbeknownst to their fallacy;
they've filled our hearts with feelings of apathy,
yet the taste of the chase leaves me gasping for more,
thinking just a drop will satisfy my soul.
It's the taste of the chase;
it's the taste of the chase that leaves me gasping for more.
Save yourself: the only thing left to resort to now.
We're always running 'cause we're so afraid
and so they tell us it's the only way (it's not the only way).
Just keep running.
Save yourself: the only thing left to resort to now.
We're always running 'cause we're so afraid
and so they tell us it's the only way (it's not the only way).
Who died and made them king?
Break chains and then set free!
Oh my father please stand next to me
Because I've given you every reason to stand up and leave
And from all my lonely efforts i cant seem to learn
And from dust I am to dust I'll turn
(ooooh ooh ooh)
And oh my father do you hear these songs
Or have I been singing to myself all along
And are you simply silent or am I simply death
Have I strayed to far or is it all in my head
And is all I am all I'll ever be
Is this gap that grows all I'll ever see
Because I've become all I used to be
But still the question stands will you stand next to me
(ooooh ooh ooh x2)
And oh my father please explain it to me
Why I still lust for you daughters even when I'm free
And have I become the habit I hate so much
It seems I lost your voice I lost your touch
And is all I am all I'll ever be
Is this gap that grows all I'll ever see
Because I've become all I used to be
But still the question stands will you stand next to me
oooh
And is all I am all I'll ever be
Is this gap that grows all I'll ever see
Because I've become all I used to be
But still the question stands will you stand next to me
I've been asking if you could stand next to me
oooooooh
woooooah
wooooooah
woooooooah
woooooah
So father we wait for you
And father we wait for you
So father we wait for you
And father we wait for you
And father we wait for you
And father we wait for you
So father we wait for you
And father we wait for you
I will not follow in my father's ways
In times of earth and dust
In times of active rage
And though I take each chance I have to walk away from who he's been
I cannot help but feel self-loathing disapproval.
I've always been my father's son: quick to anger, slow to love.
I wish I was there to see him die and breathe new life for the first time.
I want to watch the air penetrate your lungs; I want to watch you find your True Love.
I've always been my father's son.
I've always been my father's son
I've always been my father's son
I've always been my father's son
I've always been my father's son: quick to anger, slow to love.
Oh the callous created, where bitterness grows.
Of my father's mistakes, watch as I let go!
I am not a holy man, just a man with many holes.
I hear your heart has a place to give my spirit a home.
I am not a holy man, just a man with many holes.
My father's mistakes I will not follow.
I've always been my Father's son.
I've always been my Father's son.
I've always been my Father's son.
I've always been my Father's son.
Handed off, the bottle dropped through the generations
From father to son and to the son you never loved,
Did you find forgiveness wasn't enough?
You sat there in drunkenness topping it off.
I watched a dead man die right before my eyes and fade into absence.
Now believe what you once thought a lie is not just an accident.
Honestly, how can you stare at truth and not be convinced to believe?
And on your deathbed you cried out my name
seeing the memories of me through the morphine.
And I was just a child by your bedside
when I watched you fade in and out of life.
Oh I remember how you looked at me,
But I ain't the savior that you need me to be.
I watched a dead man die right before my eyes
and fade into absence.
And I believe what you once thought a lie is not just an accident.
And honestly, how can you stare at truth and not be convinced?
The hospital walls are closing in,
it's not too late to turn from your darkness.
The hospital walls are closing in,
it's not too late to turn from your darkness.
The hospital walls are closing in,
it's not too late to turn from your darkness.
The hospital walls are closing in,
it's not too late to turn from the darkness.
A paper trail is your legacy mixed with the blood of your family.
A paper trail is your legacy mixed with the blood of your family.
A paper trail is your legacy mixed with the blood of your family.
A paper trail is your legacy mixed with the blood of my family.
Messenger, messenger, don't tell me about the world.
My son will you labor on more narrow roads?
Messenger, messenger,
don't tell me about the world.
I don't want to watch my son burn.
Burn, burn, it's all gonna burn!
What if I never meet my son?
What if I just leave a mess for him to clean up?
Will this house still be riddled with adultery?
My God, why are these bones as broken as
they were before? (as they were before)
My pride leaves such a bitter taste but
I'm still wanting more,
I'm always wanting more.
Avid in confidence,
but I don't know what it's like to feel right.
My God, why are these bones as broken
as they were before? (as they were before)
My pride leaves such a bitter taste but
I'm still wanting more, I'm always wanting more.
One day you will take my name,
One day you will take my place at the table
(I cannot begin to show you love for
I have yet to love myself)
Where you will learn…
One day you will have my pride one day
you will deal with what's left behind
(How am I supposed to guide a
son when I can barely guide myself?)
Where you will learn…
You're only as good as your father’s word.
As I walk on the paths of the ones who’ve come before me;
As I stand in the shadows of the ones who lay below me
Falling hearts break like hourglass sands over mountains
Where worry meets indifference and
starving souls reach for a feeding hand
On the corners where seeing eyes belong to blind men.
Lately I've been scared,
I feel so unaware of the fallen paths that I have made.
Lately I've been scared,
Feel so unaware of the fallen hearts that I will break.
I get carried away and it tears up my heart
I don't want to finish what I start.
Quick examination, fast approximations
I don't know where I am going, but I know (where I've been)
Lately I've been scared,
I feel so unaware of the fallen paths that I have made.
Lately I've been scared,
I feel so unaware of the falling hearts that I will break.
(falling hearts that I will break)
From all I've seen it's truly
evident that there is no place to call home.
From all I've seen it's truly
evident that I am alone.
Lately I've been scared,
I feel so unaware of the fallen paths that I have made.
Lately I've been scared,
Feel so unaware of the falling hearts that I will break
(falling hearts that I will break)
From all I've seen.
From all I've seen.
From all I've seen.
From all I've seen.
My brother, you found the fast way out.
The needle, it must be loud
Loud enough to drown the sounds
of shouts and solemn regrets in your mind.
Oh brother, where was I?
The taste of those lullaby lips
lacing up veins from the touch of its kiss.
Oh how you danced for those smooth fingertips.
And brother, where was I?
When you asked for a man to
listen to your side in the argument of life?
Oh brother, where was I?
If I am my brother’s keeper,
All the more I play the reaper.
And I watched you die and I
didn't pull back the knife.
If I am my brother’s keeper,
Might as well dig his grave deeper.
Death doesn't sting but it sure
won't hold back its bite.
(I do what I want, you pay)
Silently suffering, you smiled
wide but you were hiding,
A lost mind in plain sight.
Oh brother, where was I?
A massive range of thoughts and shame
Surround the past that's haunting me
Of where I have a hand to reach
And one extended back at me.
Yet do I care to look and see
Those eyes that scream ‘come back to me’?
Yet do I see those eyes that scream
‘Come back to save the life in me’?
What is fire without the flame?
What is life without Jesus’ name?
What is fire without the flame?
What is life without Jesus’ name?
What is fire without the flame?
What is life without Jesus’ name?
What is fire without the flame?
What is life without Jesus?