[Instrumental]
Left alone
I am forced to stare at my reflection
No longer able to hide so here's my confession
Though I fear there is nothing left to save
It's been ripped away
How can I choose
When I thought that I needed you?
Just to move along in search of something new
And still I fight to feel
All of this is very real
You can't save me from who I've become
A mere shadow of my(fucking)self
Breaking down from the inside out
I will never be the same again
And I remember
The first time I looked into your eyes
I knew right then you'd be my wife
Somehow we lost each other
But I thought we'd be together forever
Now there's an emptiness inside
One I must live with all my life
Do you know how it feels to be empty?
Do you know how it feels to be all alone?
Look what you've done
You tore my heart out and held it out in front of me
If only to show the world how heartless you could be
After all these years you've lied to my face
Waiting for someone to come and take my place
(After all these years you've lied to my face
waiting for someone to come and take my fucking place)
And I remember
The first time I looked into your eyes
I knew right then you'd be my wife
Somehow we lost each other
But I thought we'd be together forever
Now there's an emptiness inside
One I must live with all my life
I've been living in this nightmare
Am I awake, or is this just a dream?
I'm running blindly through the dark
Something is chasing me
I dare not look back
Because if I do I fear for my sanity
When I think I'm safe
Life just proves me wrong
I closed my eyes for a moment
And everything was fucking gone
Standing alone I'm hoping for the end
Better than this misery that I've been force fed
And still I can't recognize myself
I'm not the person I was before
Anger flows through my veins
Polluting my soul
Changing me into this beast
That time can't erase
Your broken promises
I'll take them to my grave
Consumed by all this rage
I am the monster that you made
There is a shadow
It hangs above me
And it's feeding on my will to live
It stalks me to to my grave
Surviving off my pain
And all the shit you carved away
I've tried to blame myself
But I know deep inside I was too good for you
So I take this pain and bottle it away
And allow my anger to possess me
This is the truth I must deal with everyday
I can't look back or I'll lose my sanity
And when it's gone
I feel I will follow suit
I'll strike a fucking match
And you can watch me as I burn
Your broken promises
I'll take them to my grave
Consumed by all this rage
I am the monster you fucking made
I've been living a lie
Yet you don't even have the heart to tell me why
How can you justify looking me in my face
When you're the reason I have changed
I feel so soulless
My heart's been left out in the cold
I've become so hopeless
I'm facing all of my demons on my own
And now I've kissed you goodbye
With regrets of a life spent wasted
And I'm just trying to find
What it takes to make myself whole again
Take your fake apologies
And shove it down your fucking throat
Choke on the words that you spew
Poison from your worthless mouth
I've been speaking in tongues
With this noose tied around my neck
All that it takes is one step
To prove if I'm a coward yet
I believed in your fucking lies
There is a darkness deep inside of me
A black hole so far down that I can't see
What lies beneath the surface
A creature that's begging to be set free
And now I know how to fall
Further than I've ever gone before
There's no way back
Not after I lost it all
I've been living a lie
Yet you don't even have the heart to tell me why
How can you justify the reasons I have changed
I feel so fucking soulless
My heart's been left out in the cold
I've become so hopeless
I'm facing all of my demons on my own
I gave you everything
And you threw it all away
As if I meant nothing
You're the cancer beneath my skin
I swear that I'll never let you win
It just goes to show
Up is the only direction left to go
I've lost my mind
Trying to find a moment in time
A place where I can reconnect
When I'm no longer held against my will
Shackled to these memories I have of you
I've lost my fucking mind
Searching for the reasons why I wasn't good enough
How could I be so blind?
After all the fucking shit you put me through
And now I'm six feet underground
And I'm starting to drown
Beneath the weight of every mistake that I've ever made
Struggling to pick up pieces
As I claw my way back to the surface
Will I ever be myself again?
So fucking tell me
Will I ever feel that safe again?
I gave you everything
And you threw it all away
As if I meant nothing
Was I just another trophy on your shelf?
You're the cancer beneath my skin
I swear that I'll never let you win
It just goes to show
Up is the only direction left to go
You only have one life to live
So make it count
There's always room for second chances
Just gotta learn to pick yourself back up
This is the path that I've chosen
And I refuse to be one of the broken
A generation of damaged souls
We are the lost
We are the broke and unsettled
Hide behind the words you won't say to me
Try and erase memories I can't escape
The reason for all my hate?
Forgiveness is for the weak
A plague planted within my mind
The feeling hollows me
But I'll sleep soundly at night
Knowing karma will be bittersweet
We are lost
And I don't ever think we'll be found
And now I know how it feels
To be so close to the edge
I'm afraid that I'm never coming back
Unless I can learn to forgive
But I can never forget
I tried to forgive you
I swear I've tried
But I've got nothing left inside to give
I gave you everything
And you threw it all away
As if I meant nothing
Was I just another trophy on your shelf?
You're the cancer beneath my skin
I swear that I'll never let you win
It just goes to show
Up is the only direction left to go
I've lost my mind
I feel the hate insidev
It's growing deeper everyday
The last piece of me dies
You watch it fall and rot away
Will you follow me down the path of no return?
I'll be guiding the way with a single light
As we move further from the day
And into this never-ending night
I forgot how it feels
Walking hand in hand with you right by my side
That's how it goes
But I'm left wondering will I always be alone
I've lost all control
I'm spiraling down a hole that never ends
Dreaming of time when it all made sense
But now I'm falling even faster
I wish that you could see
You've destroyed every part of me
That made me, me
All of my hopes and all of my dreams
Turn to ash right before my eyes
And I'm left screaming
You think you're better than me?
It must be nice upon that pedestal
You have created for yourself
And when you're rising up
I am falling down
And when I hit the ground
It won't make a fucking sound
The silence is profound
I just want to be free
From this agony
Because it's haunting me until the the day that I die
I can't help laughing
Because when I close my eyes
I only see your face
Each and everyday
It's a face that I despise
Someday things might possibly change
Maybe I'll heal or maybe I'll stay the same
Only time will tell if I can move forward
Without taking steps back
And get my life back on track
And when I close my eyes
I only see your face
What a cruel trick my mind plays
It's a face that I despise
Welcome to the rest of our lives
We've been sleeping awake
With our eyes closed tight
Drifting through time
Like we're ghosts
And searching for what's left
Is what cost us the most
This is the part
Where I should tell you
How good I'm doing
How everything's okay
But the truth is
I can't remember the times
When I felt anything
Other than hatred and pain
Are you one of the broken ones?
Well join to the fucking club
We're one in a billion souls
Shunned by the ones they loved
All the hope I feel it fading away
Takes every part of me not to be afraid
Don't fall asleep (Don't fall asleep)
'Cause through your nightmares
The demons will creep
Along the way I lost myself
Life fucked me over
Like it does everyone else
Don't fall asleep (Don't fall asleep)
'Cause through your nightmares
The demons will creep
Come find me
I'm hidden somewhere deep in the dark
Walking aimlessly without my heart
And only you can show me
The way out of this nightmare
Where I'm forced to remain in
Please help me find my way out
My fucking lungs are caving in
And I'm suffocating
As I claw my out of this darkness I've become
I come from nothing
A place I can hear all my demons scream
There's no use in saving me
All the hope I feel it fading away
Takes every part of me not to be afraid
Don't fall asleep (Don't fall asleep)
'Cause through your nightmares
The demons will creep
Along the way I lost myself
Life fucked me over
Like it does everyone else
Don't fall asleep (Don't fall asleep)
'Cause through your nightmares
The demons will creep
I'm not perfect
But neither are you
At least I had the decency
To tell you the truth
I once felt dead inside
As if the world around me
Withered to ashes and died
Now there's a piece of me
That's found the peace in me
No longer lost
But still waiting to drown
Any second the bottom could just drop out
And I'll be back inside this blackhole
I just climbed out
Show me now
What's wrong this picture?
When I've used every ounce of my strength
Just to get better
There's so much pressure
That it's driving me insane
So here's to waking up
From this terrifying dream
Cause the world around me
Is not as dark as it seems
I'll never say I'm sorry
For being selfish
Cause I'm living my life for me
I found my backbone
Lost it when I was under your control
All it took was some clarity
To show me I'm no longer the victim
And I swear when I get the chance
I'll walk away
I'll disappear
Like there's nothing left to lose
It's kind of frightening
When you're frozen in time
And everything around you
Keeps on passing you by
The world doesnt stop
Because we aren't living
Take advantage of the gift
The short-term life we've been given
There is a piece of me
A fucking place in me
Where all my demons were fed
With fucked up thoughts in my head
Now I can see that they were never real
As I begin to remember what it's like to feel
So here's to waking up
From this terrifying dream
Cause the world around me
Is not as dark as it seems
I found my backbone
Lost it when I was under your control
All it took was some clarity
I'll never say I'm sorry
For being selfish
Cause I'm living my life for me
To show me I'm no longer the victim
And I swear when I get the chance
I'll walk away
I'll disappear
Like there's nothing left to lose
I finally found my backbone
No longer a slave to your control
I'll be gone in the blink of an eye
Vanish without saying so much as a goodbye
Someday when you find my grave
There'll be a message carved in the stone
Just for you
"Go fuck yourself"
Sometimes I think about those days
When we wore fake smiles on our face
Pretending that we were happy
When nothing could be further from the truth
I convinced myself
The life I was living was good enough
Trapped together
To have and to hold
In sickness and in health
Until death do we part
But nothing lasts forever
Goodbye to you
I want you to know
This was the hardest thing
I've ever had to do
So goodbye to you
I will always remember
What it felt like to be broken in two
I awoke from my life one day
Like it had all been a dream
Once so blind it was sickening
I forced myself to move on
And watched you fade away
And even though I miss you
That doesn't mean I need you in my life
After everything we've been through
It took me all this time to finally say goodbye
This is a chance for me
To finally get a few things off my chest
It's been so hard to admit
I wish the best for you
Just thought you should know
That I forgive you
And not a day goes by
When I don't wonder what my life could be like
I guess we'll never know
What we could've been
Because the past is dead
Nothing lasts forever
That's what you said to me
So let's mourn the ghost
Of what we will never be
Nothing lasts forever
The words are always on repeat
So let's bury the corpse
Of what we were
And finally be free
And even though I miss you
That doesn't mean I need you in my life
After everything we've been through
It took me all this time to finally say goodbye
This is a chance for me
To finally get a few things off my chest
It's been so hard to admit
I wish the best for you
Just thought you should know
That I forgive you
And not a day goes by
When I don't wonder what my life could be like
I guess we'll never know
What we could've been
Because the past is dead
I made a pact with the devil in my head
Sold my soul to him
So I could never feel pain again
You have no idea the toll it takes
When you're trapped inside your mind
And you've lost yourself to hate
(Apparition)
I'd trade my soul for a heart made of stone
(Apparition)
The saddest story that's ever been told
I've seen the world through your eyes
I watched those motherfuckers burn
The kind of violence that keeps me alive
I've seen the end and it's justified
(Justified)
We reap what we've sown
And now it's our time to die
Burn it down
Burn it to the ground
To the motherfucking ground
Just look up to the sky
We're in a living hell
There are flames a thousand feet high
Engulfing everything
Everything that was beautiful
Creating in its wake
A foreign land of ash and decay
(Apparition)
I'd trade my soul for a heart made of stone
(Apparition)
The saddest story that's ever been told
I've seen the world through your eyes
I watched those motherfuckers burn
The kind of violence that keeps me alive
I've seen the end and it's justified
(Justified)
We reap what we've sown
And now it's our time to die
One by one
The pieces will fall
One error too many
And it's killing us all
I've seen the world through your eyes
I watched those motherfuckers burn
The kind of violence that keeps me alive
I've seen the end and it's justified
(Justified)
We reap what we've sown
And now it's our time to die
I sold my soul for a heart made of stone
The saddest story that's ever been told
Can I be fixed?
Or am I just a lost cause?
Strap me down
Cut me open
And you'll find out what's wrong
This curse is in my blood
A wide spreading sickness
The whole world's afraid of
I swear I'm dangling
At the end of my rope
Counting down the seconds
Until I fucking choke
And it's getting harder each and every day
To push through the bullshit
In this hell I have made
I'm broken, I'm torn
Sometimes I wish I'd never been born
Dissect me
Perfect me
Sew me up
And forever regret me
But you'll never forget me
Dissect me
Show the world what they've been missing
I'm running out of places to hide
Pull me apart
Discard of what's left inside
Pull me from the depths of my own mind
Pull me from the darkness of my own mind
And now I'm back again
Always scraping the bottom
Searching for the broken pieces of me
I swear there's always a problem
My hatred of you is the only thing I can see
I'm always running, I'm always running
Without reflection
With no direction
A disappointment I'll always be
I'm broken, I'm torn
Sometimes I wish I'd never been born
Dissect me, perfect me
Sew me up
And forever regret me
I'm broken, I'm scarred
Sometimes I wish I'd never fallen this far
Dissect me, perfect me
Sew me up and you'll never forget me
[Instrumental]
I'm sinking, I'm sinking
I don't know what the hell I was thinking
My past mistakes are draped in my shame
I never thought I'd be in my twenties
Hoping desperately to amount to something
Marking down the days
Will these things ever change?
Or will they stay the same?
So here I am
With my heart in my hands
Searching for the chance
To be something more
I fear that it's gone
And I've tried my best to hold on
But I'm slipping now
With no one to catch me
My heart beats in time
With the sound, with the sound
A ticking clock constantly counting down
I never dreamed I'd be in my twenties
A hole in my chest that left me with nothing
Old memories up in flames
Only myself to blame
Can you remember the day?
When we told ourselves
That we would never be like them
Another spoke on a wheel of bullshit
I promised you
That there was way more to life than this
I swear I tried so hard
Can't believe it's all falling apart
I fought to get this far
Only to fail, only to fail
So here I am
With my heart in my hands
Searching for the chance
To be something more
I fear that it's gone
And I've tried my best to hold on
But I'm slipping now
With no one to catch me
I've tried so hard
To feel just like I used to
I'd rather feel this painv
Than nothing at all
I've fought so hard
To try and break the cycle
A failure I'm forced to meet
Each and every day