Dreams are forever reoccurring,
And life is what happens when we can't fall asleep,
We need to bare one another's burdens,
Real family and friends will always stab you in the front,
The end result is not one damned thing after another,
It's one damned thing over and over,
We are condemned and this is how we learn.
Don't you see it's time to let go of everything,
that's keeping us from the truth,
keeping me from you,
so what good are all the pictures,
if they have yet to gather flames,
leave your past in the past and focus on what you don't want framed.
Dreams are forever reoccurring,
And life is what happens when we can't fall asleep,
And dreams are the same thing as nightmares.
Don't you see it's time to let go of everything,
that's keeping us from the truth,
keeping me from you,
so what good are all the pictures,
if they have yet to gather flames,
leave your past in the past and focus on what you don't want framed.
Oh leave your past in the past,
We don't have to keep our mistakes displayed.
You are keeping me awake.
Leave your past behind you.
Dreams are forever reoccurring.
[This is the real world in real time
And I am sick of rendering
So toss your seeds on cement
And see if they can grow alone
There is a reason behind weeds
When walls are broken we can break
Through them all
To see what continues to grow
It's hard to see humility
Because humanity is lead by us men
And we all need exorcisms and exercising
{were} born with two sides and need to stay in shape
You're so insecure standing in your own skin
Someday you won't need it
And I can't do this on my own
And I will always be an imperfect human just being me, just being me
And I will always be an imperfect human being me
Stop worrying about where you've been because it brought you back to me
It's hard to see humility
Because humanity is lead by us men
And we all need exorcisms and exercising
{were} born with two sides and need to stay in shape
And we can be delivered even if it's late
Being late is okay if we reach our destination
I am not afraid to die
I am not afraid to die
I am terrified of life
I am terrified
I am not afraid to die
I am not afraid to die
I am terrified of life
I am terrified
You're so insecure standing in your own skin
Someday you won't need it anymore
I will walk alone
So go ahead and turn away
See where it gets you in the long run.
I'm trying my hardest to grow
When it's embedded in your bones
It grows with.
Are we all punished for sins of fathers.
It seems so pointless to have an existence
In a world misused.
It seems so pointless to have an opinion
When yours is never true.
Just try to imagine
A life without love
But death has its hold on us.
So think upon beauty
Its like painting a picture
When everything's shaded in grey
And even when we've been face to face
We have never seen eye to eye
So take a good look in mine
It's a window to a soul that knows not why.
You can't continue this direction
It's detours and dead ends.
Don't join this kind of company
Unless your joining to fight.
Fight for your life.
Losing the fight is getting knocked down and staying there.
So why do I turn away it's getting me nowhere.
Nowhere in the long run
The world can't make you faithless when faith is first.
Where is your faith
(I've got my father's teeth
And my mother's bygones.
We are all victims of consequence.
And we can built it or tear it down
With the same two hands!)
(We all fail,
But we are not all failures.
Preaching to never fail,
We don't have to live like this!)
Don't live your life in shame,
(Chasing what was too far away!)
It's not a contest
And look if you want.
You'll speak and you'll speak,
But not around to me.
Broken homes lead the way
For twisted tongues.
(Broken homes
Lead way for twisted tongues,
We will not be forgotten.
This will be the reason I refuse
To find to a way break this empathy.
We want too easy!)
(I found a foot hole in the fault line.
There was only a voice,
There was only Him.
And this is what it said:)
I still love you somehow,
And I still love you somehow.
Don't live your life just yet,
(Chasing what was too far away!)
It's not a contest
And look if you want.
You'll speak and you'll speak,
But not around to me.
Broken homes lead the way
For twisted times.
(I still love you, I still love you somehow!)
(I still love you somehow.
I still love you somehow
And I always will!)
(You've got a tape worm
Growing within your soul.
You're gonna have to dig it out alive.
Dig it out. Dig it out, dig it out!)
I still love you somehow,
And I still love you somehow.
We don't feel the world turn,
Take these steps in my days,
One at a time.
We all start the same dreams,
Don't try them, you're asleep.
(We all try to run from our problems
And straight to the answers.
We all spend our time chasing grace,
But not listening to own my faith.
Without that faith we'd just decay!)
We are not useless.
We are not useless just used.
And I see something
In you I'm going to prove.
(Useless and used!)
We've been used.
(This is what we're all going through!)
Whom ever loses us, whom ever loses us.
(Whom ever loses us, whom ever loses us!)
We are not useless.
We are not useless just used.
And I see something in you
I'm going to prove.
(Useless and used,
This is what we're all going through!)
(You never know when you're close.
Close inside,
Until you reach inside and force it out.
Will we ever we make the demons leave?
So we can learn in peace.
We've all got it buried underneath!)
Whom ever loses us, whom ever uses us.
They say that home is where the heart is
It's all we've got to part with.
We all have to find love alone.
They say that home is where the heart is,
You make me your home.
We won't feel the world turn,
If we keep standing still.
Twenty something
Years of seclusion
Seems to be quite enough
Just get me out of this town
It's like a dried up,
lake full of debris and I am starting to drown
Sometimes I can see clearer
Through rear view mirrors
Then windshields with
All the places I've been
How do I find my destination?
Neither one of us is getting out
Of the situation alive
Until the other one dies
And it wont be me
You clench your hold like you clench your teeth
And I will send you back to hell
Holding your jaw,
Like your demon teeth
Your demon teeth
Put your ghosts in the past
Don't put your torment back
Beneath it's reoccurring
Pull apart its jaw
And smash out its teeth
Who do I believe?
When everyone sees and speaks
Based in part by what they themselves believe
I'd Rather see a man of god
Than hear from one
Any day of the week
So take hold of these demons
Cast them into pigs
But don't let a single one of them leap
Take their filth
And let them learn
(No, no, no, no) Just let them teach
[x2]
Instead of reading the book (I've read the book)
Try Meeting The Author (I've met the author)
That's my problem, I've had the devil on both sides
With god at the bottom (ughhhh)
Chin Up
Chin Up
He doesn't pick where he stands,
I pick where I place him.
In spite of my cheerful demeanor
I'm afraid to set foot in the world
We watch the same dead clocks
These small hands need to meet the larger again
I chose a road, one that I didn't know...
Now it has brought me here
The stories that I have gathered in travels,
I wouldn't trade for the years, back
There's a war inside,
I need something to get me through this
Without you, am I ever myself
The only thing holding us back is us
You should back away from us
And ghosts from the last time
Are all the same
We can live again
We can live again
We can live again
All we can do is try and try and try and try to change
For ourselves
The night has been my covering
And the day is my disguise
But I can't seem to stay far enough away,
From self created lies
For those of you who question your purpose
Look inside the eyes staring back at you
Past your devil
They long for purpose too
And maybe that's yours, I know cause it's mine
You are the second hand air that I breathe
And these songs were made for you to sing before me
And they are more than just sound
And you are more than just an audience
This is the family I've found
The night has been my covering
And the day is my disguise
But I can't seem to stay far enough away,
From self created lies
I chose a road, and now I know
Nothing will ever come easy
I chose this road
Staying asleep is worse than falling awake
I chose this road
Staying asleep is worse than falling awake
(You said to live life
And live it in abundance,
But you yourselves are abundantly dead!)
(And if not for a reason,
I would have another reason to stay.
I need to find a place
Where I can fill my faith,
I don't need it taken!)
(Oh, I will learn to let you go.
Oh, learn to let you go
Back to your shadow!)
Take me to the place
Where I can restore my faith.
Oh, I wrote and said that you are skin.
One day they will be
The earth and it's world.
(Are you a preacher or a pastor,
A teacher and a bastard?
Are you...
Are you a preacher or a pasture,
A teacher and a bastard just like me?
Just like me!)
(You said to live life.
Since the day we were made,
We've all started to die.
But I can only listen once,
Well, nobody ever dies once!)
Take me to the place
Where I can restore my faith.
Oh, I wrote and said that you are skin.
One day they will be
The earth and it's world.
(Go on, speak for yourself.
Speak for yourself!)
(Pull apart your scarecrows,
Pull apart your scarecrows!)
Has the dark been forever calling
When I stare off alone, is the devil with
I didn't create the disease, I just diagnosed
I wanna be missed but I just can't go
No, don't take me back there
Don't take me back there, no
Bury me a hole in the sky
Not in my mind
No one ever makes it out of life alive
That's no excuse for you to not try
Has the dark been forever calling
When I take trips alone, is the devil with
I didn't create the disease
You were created in me
No, don't take me back there
Don't take me back there, no
Our life's a road not a destination
In my travels tonight, you were my inspiration
You'll make it past this night
More alive
The cleanest we'll be is the day before
We're buried in soil
Where we'll make peace with worms
And I've seen you in dust
But not dirt
You'll make your peace
But you still won't know where you belong
But I'll be there with you
The world's tried to make me
Put a hole through my own head
And bury me there
It would be too easy
This is the lost not the last
I've always needed
Help
We all have our scars to show
They will forever try to close
We've all made mistakes but grown from
The last song that you'll hear
Will be your own
I’ll never know comfort till the sun sets.
I’ve always known the struggle when the light and my eyes met.
They connect.
Put me back in the earth.
I came from dust and not dirt.
You made me from dust, not dirt.
They say the things that love you will never stay,
is that really true?
I guess you made everyone leave before they could hurt you, but who taught this to you?
Hurting people will always be hurting people,
it was you that made me me
Every storm made me soak to find strong roots,
I am reminded, I am reminded
All my roots are starting to show yet I'm still trying to grow
And I am reminded, I am reminded there is still hope
And I hope one day you will understand pain is just a brand
I've given my life to keep it away from your skin
And I hope one day you will understand pain is never planned
And the start of a cycle is always the end when we are the victims
And that's how I know I need to write about this for you
The youth that never got told the truth
That's my problem, I've got intentions on both sides
Stitched together with lies and more songs left to write
Do things write this time about how
To untangle all the knots that we keep tied
My stomach is weak because you made me me and someone made you you
We are the victims and I am the hope
And I hope one day you will understand pain is just a brand
I've given my life to keep it away from your skin
And I hope one day you will understand pain is never planned
And the start of a cycle is always the end when we are the victims
And I hope one day you will understand pain is never planned
When the start of the cycle is always the end when we are the victims
You, you are the victim and I am still learning that I can be the hope
f you give up on me, then I give up on everything
I didn't come this far to not tell you the truth
And you'll know it's true because the,
answers that I tell you will make you all feel sick
Feel hateful, feel useless and used,
just remember that every piece of trash
Was one time itself first used
Say the word
Say the word and I will go quickly to a light
Too much of any one thing at a time will leave you blind
Say the word and I will go quickly to a light
Too much of any one thing at a time just left me blind
You need to get through what you are going through
Some day someone, somewhere will need you
If you give up on me, then I give up on everything
Back and forth my reason grows, I didn't choose this I was chose
Back and forth my reason grows, I didn't choose this and I want to go
Home is where the hurt is and no one even knows
Say the word and I will go quickly to a light
Too much of any one thing at a time will leave you blind
Say the word and I will go quickly to a light
Too much of any one thing at a time just left me blind
If you give up on me then I give up on everything
If you give up on me then I give up on everything
We are the same disease
One way too old
One way too young to treat
Our feet stuck in the same concrete
We just want to be free
Aren't you sick of knowing that you could truly be
Something that stays and makes a difference before it leaves
Aren't you sick of hearing all the pain in me
Aren't you sick of being sick from the same disease
Come to me with anything that you'll ever need
Come to me when you're rebuilding
Sometimes it's good to build up walls, not to keep anyone outv
But to see who cares enough to knock them down
We can start again
With our names written in new cement
We can write the date
Right after we dig ourselves out of the messes we've made
You'll never know
What you have until it's gone
Through hell for you
Come to me with anything that you'll ever need
Come to me when you're rebuilding
Sometimes it's good to build up walls, not to keep anyone out
But to see who cares enough to knock them down
You'll never stop making mistakes
But if you learn from them you will never make the same ones twice
Next time there may be no next time
Come to me with anything that you'll ever need
Come to me when you're rebuilding
Sometimes it's good to build up walls, not to keep anyone out
But to see who cares enough to knock them down
Question everything
Have I already been buried
I can see no light but I am still stuck here breathing
Maybe a wretch like me is supposed to stay forever buried
So you can see the analogy of what happens,
to you when you keep things buried beneath
I have been buried for years but why am I still breathing
I don't make mistakes
I bury them
Suffocating soul that the devil just won't claim
I dug this grave now it's time to tell the truth from it
You put one foot on the lid when did I let it close
One foot on the lid 5 feet left to go
Forgive your enemies but never forget their names
I am my own worst enemy
Suffocating soul that the devil won't claim
I don't know if I believe in you anymore but everything needs an analogy
I know I'm lost with no motivation to find my way back
I left myself down a paper trail of the pages of my mind, now I want them back,
I'm somewhere between no courage among the other things I lack
Lost in desperation where an ember turns to an ash
Somewhere along this path I crossed the line
Broken promises I've made without thinking twice
Left my second thought and reason behind
All in the name of making this world mine
All in the name of building my own
Why do I think that I have to live this life alone, I know I'm lost
I know, I know I'm lost, I know, I know I'm lost
But what scares me the most is I'm starting to feel at home
I know, I know I can't stay here forever,
when we lose ourselves we find each other
I find this strange comfort in being lost in life
Wherever I end up will I belong there this time?
So when you feel your heart sink into your chest
Don't forget everything is okay in the end
We are not okay but this is not the end yet
We are not okay but this is not the end yet
We are not okay but this is not the end
I know, I know I'm lost, I know, I know I'm lost
But what scares me the most is I'm starting to feel at home
I know, I know I can't stay here forever,
when we lose ourselves we find each other
How am I supposed to write about
hope with catchy hooks and melodies and make you sing along
Well I titled this whole album before I tried to write a song
And the truth is hope can be a burning sun
The closer that you seem to get the quicker you get lost in the sight of
It keeps casting it's shadow of our burdens behind,
us and the more we try stand inside the light
The more a darkness seems to grow
Is darkness the shade where I've found peace
So maybe this time I need to be standing for someone to believe
Like a weathered oak with know hope carved in me
So maybe this time I need to be standing for someone to believe
You can take the life from me but I'll always be here standing,
Still very time you need me
Hope is at the root but each day
It's still casting a shadow of my darkness behind me
And the more I try to show you with the light
The more a darkness seems to follow
You will never change what you refuse to face
Like a shadow we always grow every time we try to find the light
So maybe this time I need to be standing for someone to believe
Like a weathered oak with know hope carved in me
So maybe this time I need to be standing for someone to believe
You can take the life from me
Maybe this time I need to be
Maybe this time I need to be me
You don't know who you are anymore
Tonight I don't know either but we are standing still
We can't be moved
When hope is at the root of you
Every time the wind grows still and I continue to lose movement
You are there to walk up chin down and carve your name
Every time the wind grows still and life pushes you further
Come carve your name
Know hope in me
Some days you're the pigeon
And some days you are the statue
Some days you're meant to just sit back and observe
While the world takes its turn and just shits all over you
Some days you need the rain because no one gets paid
To come clean up the messes that life makes all over you
I don't know who I am in this moment
I know I disappoint you
You don't know who I am anymore
Well that makes two of us
Are you following a god and this song got in the way
I'm sorry I'm sorry but I am not sorry
Is this the truth, the light, the sight,
the roots, or the noose
Everyone is religious only until they don't need to be anymore
That's not faith no not to me
All I have let to make are memories and mistakes
And new questions I'll take to the grave
Do you know how it feels to have your past sink
it's teeth right into your back
Only to turn around and see yourself
Keep the hell away from me
The devil you know is better than the devil you don't
Keep the hell away from me
You can still lead a positive life with a negative mind
Keep the hell away from me
We've been deserted, that doesn't mean that we deserve it
Is it worth it, keeping ourselves at bay
Set sail, you've spent way too much time living your life, in exile
To say goodbye, to the shoreline
Maybe if I'm sent off to sea, I'll find out what this means to me
I've got a message I carry, that I have forgotten to read
Maybe if I'm sent off to sea, I'll find out what this means to me
I've got a message I carry, that I have forgotten to read
I don't need another day, floating away
Lost in the sea of regret I've made
I want to wash up new for once
For once I don't want to float face down
We've been deserted, that doesn't mean that we deserve it
Is it worth it, keeping ourselves at bay
You can try and fail, but don't fail to try
Do I deserve this
If you're deserted, you can't desert it
You can never leave an island in your
Mind until you lose sight of the shoreline
You can try and fail, but don't fail to try
Some people spend their entire lives in exile
You can't never leave, an island
Until you lose sight of the shoreline
Times like these they come in waves
Make your footprint and send it right back away
All you're saying to me tonight, here in the open skyline
Without darkness, no star can learn to guide the way
Maybe if I'm sent off to sea, I'll find out what this means to me
I've got a message I carry, that I have forgotten to read
Maybe if I'm sent off to sea, I'll find out what this means to me
I've got a message I carry, that I have forgotten to read
You are not as lost as me
You are not as lost as me
No your not, no your not as lost as me
If you were and you were I wouldn't be here writing
No your not, no your not as lost as me
If you were if you were I wouldn't be here writing
Some day you will find me
Am I stuck inside my own mind
Or am I just an insect in amber frozen in a moment and forgotten in time
Where is my mind
I don't want the world to see me I want the world to see where it is I've been
I just want someone to feel like they can be something
There's got to be more than feeling this alone
I've been through enough to leave me alone
Now I feel so confused
Maybe I was made to learn on my own
I don't want to go to the grave wondering what I could have made
Will I ever change
I don't want to live day by day wondering if I'll ever change
Get back
I don't want to live day by day
It's never too late to make the change
Everyone you've known
These moments you're lost and alone
You've pushed everyone away even when they tried to stay
Where did this come from
Enough is enough
I've been through enough to leave me alone
Now I feel so confused
Maybe I was made to learn on my own
I can't do this on my own
I wish I had more time to
Sort out all of this inside my mind
I only have one day
it's given at dawn and at dusk it gets taken away
I can't control what I think
so how can I control what I say
I don't know who I am at the moment and I can't pray
I can't pray for the answers anymore
I only have myself to blame for losing control
I've always needed something maybe I needed to be alone
and I don't need to be saved
I'm not saying that it's too late
but way too much has changed
you call it savior
and I call it a learned behavior
you call it the light I refuse to see
and I call it the mask I've seen underneath
just do and say the same thing
no opinion preserved in stained glass holds more moral truth to me
I only have myself to blame for losing control
I still need to be saved just not by you
I just need to be safe
but not by you
And I owe it all to you
This change must fall on your
Change for everyone else and you'll do things backwards
Nothing works out itself
Move on
So stop running away
I can feel you cause your feet are keeping time with me
How could anyone choose to live this way
In the past they won't escape
We are the same you and me
No direction and a steady pace
Some of us don't choose to live this way
Maybe the best part of you was waiting for your past to die
This change must fall on your
Change for everyone else and you'll do things backwards
Nothing works out itself
Move along
Today one step can lead to many
And I want you to run in time with me not away
It's so much easier to just breathe
In the air than it is to exist in it
Sometimes we carry ourselves only as dead weight
Sometimes it takes your whole world falling apart
To really know what you stand for
What do you stand for
Life falls apart but did you ever see where every piece could land
Maybe pieces of you were preplanned to fall apart
So they could fall together
So they fall in place for someone else
And you said that you needed a voice
And I needed a reason
To believe
Believe in yourself because you are the same as me
No one every changes if they don't change for themselves
You're not alone
How are we supposed to live
How are we supposed to breathe
How are we supposed to carry on with all of this buried
This change must fall on you
Change for everyone else and you'll live your life backwards
I understand you
You're not evil despite what they may say
And I'm too abused to walk away from this
Of all I've been through I just wouldn't change it
If I could go back in time and change everything
I wouldn't change a thing because it made me who I am
And I'm so confused
I don't seem to know what's real or what's make
believe anymore but I must move forward for you
And do this all for you
Without you there is no me and I'll stay even if you choose to leave
The world will always keep turning it's back on me
And I just wouldn't change it
If I could go back in time and change everything
I wouldn't change a thing because it made me
I am not leaving this room tonight until
I know that I've changed at least one life
And you are not leaving not knowing,
not knowing how you are changing mine
Please don't sing louder than me unless
Your singing with a heart backing a beat
Then you'll know there's a reason for
This song to find you and sing along
This is not another singalong
This is one breath made from different lungs
You did well, devil.
Family life.
It's like puzzle pieces disconnected.
Pictures frames will never find.
This broken home my demons still reside.
You would think we could have lived together with all this hell inside.
Mother, I just needed you to know.
Something good grew out from all of the cracks inside our broken home.
I am a lonely soul, a kid flying his kite alone.
Or am I just a head in the clouds, welcoming wind every time there's a storm?
Where do I go now?
I grew up in a house God built with the devils blueprints with no foundation found.
I went to hell to have some words with the devil about what he did, but it was empty.
Everyone moved out.
Mother, I just needed you to know
Something good grew out from all of the cracks inside our broken home.
And father, I needed you the most
But I'm still a kid in aging skin, a hypocrite trying to grow.
Every time I try
To bury the wreckage of that old house in my mind.
I see the same crow on the power line.
He could have flown to any other home,
But he'll never stop chasing mine.
He’ll never stop chasing mine.
It's a strange kind of comfort
Learning to always love
The cracks inside broken homes.
Mother, I just needed you to know
Something good grew out from all of the cracks in our broken home.
And father, I needed you the most,
But I'm still a kid in aging skin, and I will always love you both.
We'll all stop singing songs
And start singing out our pain instead
I hope one day to bury the past so deep
My ghost can't find it
Is this you being yourself or
Acting on part to please someone else
Take a look at your health
Take a look in someone else's eyes
But don't deface yourself
Go on, try to delete me
Deceive me, you can't
I will destroy you
That demon inside before it destroys everything
At some point
You'll have to make a few decisions
Boundaries don't keep anybody out
They only fence us in
I've got myself and no one else
Our demons are made from a past
But we leave them a home in hell
I've got myself and no one else
And I am just fine with this
I've got myself and no one else
But I'm not okay, who am I kidding?
Is this you being yourself or
Acting on part to please someone else
Take a look at your health
Take a look in someone else's eyes
But don't deface yourself
Go on, try to delete me
Deceive me, you can't
I will destroy you
That demon inside before it destroys everything
I will destroy you
Leave now
While you still have the legs to take you
Go on, try to delete me
Deceive me, you can't
I will destroy you
That demon inside before it destroys me
Maybe I don't need to
Find a demon that plays well with mine
Maybe I need to let go
Of the hell I keep raising inside on my own
On my own
When you are changing the life you know,
this can be oh so hard to face.
But what’s worse is regret that one day you’ll wake up.
Pretending to love someone before you love yourself.
When will our hearts be free?
Because our ribs are cages.
Where do I belong when everything I've loved has come and gone?
Where do I belong when even my own shadow leaves me when darkness comes?
There's got to be a crack in everything.
Otherwise, a light could never find it's way in.
Years of love are lost in the hatred of a moment.
You'll never know what it's worth until it’s a memory, so you should own it.
One person’s insecurity can become a reality
for someone else when we use each other to find love in ourselves.
When will our hearts be free?
Because our ribs are cages.
Where do I belong when everything I've loved has come and gone?
Where do I belong when even my own shadow leaves me when darkness comes?
When will our hearts be free?
cause our ribs are cages.
Where do I belong when everything I've loved has come and gone?
Where do I belong when even my own shadow leaves me when darkness comes?
When darkness comes, when darkness comes, what do I need?
Without our ups and downs,
We're all just living dead.
I put my pulse on paper
Because I want out from inside of my head.
Don't write yourself off.
Say what you think and mean what you say,
Unless you're OK living life
with a pulse that's flatlining.
I guess we only get a chance
To write our stories once.
We need to look back and say
that one time was plenty enough.
Are we confusing our heart with our mind?
Are they on the same page or did
we write one off and push the other behind?
Take me anywhere but here,
Away from these insecurities I fear.
Take me anywhere but here,
Just make sure if you are the one that will have me,
You know just what you're taking.
You know you had a darkness inside,
Floor to sky, left to write.
It was on the record we made last time.
And any writer writes afraid of the next line,
To put down on paper the things
he's tried to erase in his mind.
And I am no longer afraid of mine,
A writer that found a reason for the pain inside.
A word is dead when it's said, some say.
I say it just began to live that day.
I said it once I'll say it again.
Maybe you weren't listening.
I said it once I'll say it again.
To live backwards isn't evil, it's rewriting.
Take me anywhere but here,
Away from these insecurities I fear.
Take me anywhere but here,
Just make sure if you are the one that will have me,
You know just what you're taking.
I said it once
I'll say it again.
I said it once
I'll say it again.
Are you listening?
Are you listening?
The best stories are written
when they're spent rewriting
Today feels like it might be the wrong day for me to die.
I’ve been spending too much time believing in self-created lies
And words are just words, until they're put in to work.
And I’m standing so firm in this, firm in this.
Leave a mark upon the world, not across your arms,
a mark upon the world too beautiful for scars.
I can only hold up half the sky at one time
and I got through today so I could help you sleep at night.
I feel a tired in my eyes trying to find the sunrise
and I’m learning that life is getting through the night.
Leave a mark upon the world, not across your arms,
a mark upon the world too beautiful for scars.
I understand you.
A track record of track marks,
a small collection of stories
that never get told again.
I understand you.
Take pride in all the marks upon your soul.
Oh, they should show you
you've been through a hell of a life alone.
Leave a mark upon the world, not across your arms,
a mark upon the world too beautiful for scars.
So much heart, so much time, but not enough.
Self-inflicted pain can come and
Remain in the fear inside of all of us,
Desperately and endlessly
Trying to find a means to some kind of peace.
We can't learn when things come easy.
Now that we are prepared for war,
We have an effective means to
Preserving peace for each and everyone.
The chances of you even being born
Were forty million to one.
There's two parts of the statistic;
I want you to live.
Suicide doesn't end the pain,
it passes to the ones you love and remains.
Take yourself out of the equation
And the problem stays.
When I speak such a word,
Are you uneasy with how it's heard?
The stigma will never leave
Unless all of us can just start talking.
The only people I know resting in peace
Without fear or anxiety are the deceased.
That's why they say "may the dead rest in peace."
The things we feel we could never change,
Can end up changing everything.
Now that we are prepared for war,
We have an effective means to
Preserving peace for each and everyone.
The chances of you even being born
Were forty million to one.
There's two parts of the statistic
And I want you to live through one.
Sometimes to win a battle inside, you need to start a war.
Sometimes to win a battle inside, you need to start a war.
Now that we are prepared for war,
We have an effective means to
Preserving peace for each and everyone.
The chances of you even being born
Were forty million to one.
There's two parts of the statistic
And I want you to live through one
I want you to live through one.
I want you to live through one.
All these voices in my head.
I’ll never know just what I'll feel,
let alone what will be said.
We all forget the things we say
but we never forget how we felt
when we let ourselves feel.
One head so many voices.
Maybe I'll spend my whole life licking wounds.
My tongue feels likes it's got two jobs
to twist and say shit I don't need to.
And to come between my stomach and my head,
separate, which one of you do I listen to?
Parts of me miss pieces of you.
Oh all these voices in my head.
I never knew exactly how this could feel.
Retelling stories from a movie life from reel to real.
You're still slowly developing and you'll die
if you're exposed to too much light at one time.
People like us have learned to feel at home
in the darkest corners of their minds.
What hurts me the most is hiding the scars across my body
and not knowing if they had a reason to close.
You and I know the price now its time to make change.
Listen decisions will need to be remade.
I told you sometimes days like these don't change.
I know you and I we have the same trouble keeping blood in our veins.
Addiction its not so much about us overcoming.
Sometimes maybe it’s more about us just replacing.
Look you and I will always have this song
just like I know I had a reason to write it.
Its not just a breathless sing along.
I will relive this so that you'll never have to feel alone.
I will relive this when you're alone
I will be the voice inside of your headphones.
I told you sometimes days like these don't change.
I know you and I we have the same trouble keeping blood in our veins.
I know some days I wish I could just erase the past
but if I hide my wounds ashamed then you'd never know we’re the same.
Let my darkness illuminate take my hand and let me light your way.
Just keep the blood inside your veins.
You and I know the price now its time to make change.
Listen decisions will need to be remade.
I told you sometimes days like these don't change.
I know you and I we have the same trouble keeping blood in our veins.
Am I defined by the hell you left me in
Or the influence I make while living it?
Sometimes you find yourself stuck in the middle of nowhere
But the middle of nowhere is where we find ourselves
And only time will tell how long we stay
The hardest part about feeling
Like life has fallen apart
Is that feeling for some of us
That it always will because it always does
I see that things are getting bad again
I'm not seeing you lately, you've been hiding
Let's get lost together in a new direction
We may not have it all together
But together we can have it all
But we're still here and only time
Will tell how long we stay
The hardest part about feeling
Like life has fallen apart
Is that feeling for some of us
That it always will because it always does
You call it a demon
I call it self sabotage in hiding
You call it a demon
Or is happiness a mediocre sin?
And now I know there's a place in my mind I go.
Secluded, where my head is quick but my heart is slow.
I bottle things up for too long waiting on someone to find me.
I'm a message lost in a sinking sea.
We all want to be found and held so close
so all that we know that is broken falls back together.
No one is ever going to believe in yourself for you
and every false belief that you think is true was put inside of you.
Imperfection and not accepting who you are, I'm guilty too.
Your imperfections make you perfect to me.
Now learn to just stay you.
Everyone you know is fighting a battle of their own.
Now do unto yourself what your neighbors never show.
What a world we live in we’re falling for everything and anyone but us.
You just want somebody to love the hell out of you
but you will never find that kind of love in someone before yourself.
We all want to be found and held so close
so all that we know that is broken falls back together.
No one is ever going to believe in yourself for you
and every false belief that you think is true was put inside of you.
Imperfection and not accepting who you are, I'm guilty too.
Your imperfections make you perfect to me.
Now learn to just stay you.
I understand you more than you think I do.
Stop looking up to me start looking up to you.
Imperfection and not accepting who you are, I’m guilty too.
Will you spend another day believing what the world wants you to?
No one is ever going to believe in yourself for you
and every false belief that you think is true was put inside of you.
Imperfection and not accepting who you are, I'm guilty too.
Your imperfections make you perfect to me.
Now learn to just stay you.
Learn to just stay you.
I can see your eyes looking up at me
to see if anyone is noticing.
No one has been there to listen
all the more reason to sing.
I promise this won’t last forever.
I don't want to let you make that choice.
You don't need to abuse your arms but use your voice.
I know right now you think that no one is listening.
If we fall together, we'll live forever and never grow alone.
When I look out, I see a field of youth
and it is filled with doubt.
A field of flowers pulling their petals off way too soon.
One by one. Dropping like flies no one is speaking up.
I know right now you think that no one is listening.
If we fall together, we'll live forever and never grow alone.
You can grow out from decay
but what you do with your today
can resonate to everything, keep growing.
We've been pulled from the earth.
We know but we can still grow though.
We've both started to die and slow.
Why pick ourselves early?
We're dying here anyways.
Remember I can show you light,
but you will have to learn
how to grow on your own.
What is a rose with no thorn?
I know right now you think that no one is listening.
If we fall together, we'll live forever and never grow alone.
You can grow out from decay
but what you do with your today
can resonate to everything, keep growing.
And sometimes the most beautiful pain in life
is the kind you can't disguise or hide.
And the hard truth about life.
If I'm not allowed to give up on mine,
you are not allowed to not even try.
One day at a time you'll have to remake
the same decision as the one I made last night.
You and I have already started to die.
And now that I understand, why I've never felt quite so alive.
And I feel like I've sang about scars a hundred times
but for the record I’ve found the reason for mine.
And sometimes we need to find a reason
for the pain in our own lives.
Mine was you and I promise this song
is a place for the truth.
We can’t keep hiding and hurting.
I know I’ve tried to.
One day at a time we just might have to remake
the decision every day for the rest of life.
You and I have already started to die.
And now that I understand, why I've never felt quite so alive.
And I feel like I've sang about scars a hundred times
but for the record I’ve found the reason for mine.
And for the record, I'm in California still writing one day at a time.
And for the record, I refuse to be ashamed of all my scars.
You and I are both the same.
We've already cheated death so many times.
If we’re going to die, why not cheat it again tonight?
You and I have already started to die.
And now that I understand, why I've never felt quite so alive.
And I feel like I've sang about scars a hundred times
but for the record I’ve found the reason for mine.
Cashing in on rainchecks I live withdrawn from surroundings
I'm trying to feel it's not very rich nothing stays golden
Yesterday is in the past but tomorrow I don't see coming
We have a gift a new today but I'm so sick of the present
I'm breathing just fine but am I alive
I'm living safe as a lonesome soul
But I'm dying to feel so much less alone
I'm reaching out but I'm feeling nothing
As heavy-hearted as a feather with no wind
And broken-hearted moving in circles
Like an angel with one wing
I'm still there walls surrounding me
I'm still there with bricks others have thrown
I'm reaching out but I'm feeling nothing
Floating on like a plastic bag without a home
Pages folded became paper planes that we could fly
We've clipped every wing we used to fly
Your wings might be broken but it's not too late
You hide your emotions so you can escapev
You cant be afraid to make mistakes
And you can't fake perfection
Broken compass still moving forward
A constant north the one I'll never know
Like everything I gravitate to what ends up killing me
We're separated by a hell of a lot more than the sky
It's not what you've done but what you'll choose to do
I feel at home with shadows from ghosts of the living
I dance along to melodies as silent choirs sing
I'm sick of always giving when there's nothing left to lose
That place we're in is breaking
It's try to break me too
I built these walls to keep the outside world from me
And I'll fight to stay in the hell of my own mind
It's safer on the inside
Underneath where you can't ever get to me
And I'll fight to stay in the hell of my own mind
It's safer on the inside (built these walls)
Chaos reigns
Inside of all of us
All this pain
It's not where I belong
It's not my fate
You're a hypocrite
You're the dying proof of it
Now I know
Broken people just like you can be so dangerous
Knowing you'll survive by feeding off the rest of us
There's nothing like a trail of blood
to find your way back home
And nothing feels as cold inside
as heaven down below
I've been lost and never found,
afraid to speak my truth out loud
With empty hands I came into
this world, and I'll leave just the same
Death, you cannot take me,
you've tried and failed before
With everything so deafening,
each breath worth fighting for
I refuse to be your casualty
cause pain has its reward
No longer trapped in agony,
you cannot take me, I survive the storm
Is hell a place or just a word,
because as far as I can see
They both feel like one in the same,
so which do I believe?
Some days we feel everything
and others not at all
Do I cave beneath the weight
or rise above it all?
Death, you cannot take me,
you've tried and failed before
With everything so deafening,
each breath worth fighting for
I refuse to be your casualty
cause pain has its reward
No longer trapped in agony,
you cannot take me, I survive the storm
Maybe that's the hell that I'm living
Battles between where I'm numb or I'm feeling
Remember when we filled our lives
With the will to fucking live
Death, you cannot take me,
you've tried and failed before
With everything so deafening,
each breath worth fighting for
I refuse to be your casualty
cause pain has its reward
No longer trapped in agony,
you cannot take me, I survive the storm
There's nothing like a trail of blood
to find your way back home
There's nothing like a trail of blood
to find your way back home
You're the one who started this,
now it's time to finish it
Don't become something you despised
when you started
I can feel it in my bones,
feel it in the air tonight
Starting arguments with the ghosts
of people still alive
I knew exactly what you wanted,
I pretend to want the same
Another reason I'm too haunted
by what could have been
I feel dead in myself
and I can't feel alive in anyone else
If it made you hurt, made you feel so much
It must be love that I gave up
What if this version of me
Gave up today on who it could be?
I know I'm still broken because
I can't fix myself with somebody else that's breaking
Whether you believe you can or can't change
I guess that you'll be right either way
The dark can't keep hiding in darknes
It's getting harder to see
If it made you hurt, made you feel so much
It must be love that I gave up
What if this version of me
Gave up today on who it could be?
I know I'm still broken because
I can't fix myself with somebody
else that's breaking
What if we could just escape
from our situations?
Out of our heads,
let our hearts do the heavy lifting
What if this version of me
Gave up today on who it could be,
who it could be?
What if this version of me
Gave up today on who it could be?
What if this version of me
Gave up today on who it could be?
I know I'm still broken because
I can't fix myself with somebody
else that's breaking
What if we could just escape
from our situations?
Out of our heads,
let our hearts do the heavy lifting
What if this version of me
Gave up today on who it could be,
who it could be?
Who it could be?
Who it could be?
Who it could be?
Who it could be?
On my own, let's face it, that's all I've ever known
What's left to show, that I can break a foundation as quickly as it poured?
But I still believe in things I've never seen
It's bittersweet being homesick for places that don't exist to me
Can we be honest to each other
so I can tell the truth myself?
We've all tried to please the world from inside our hollow shell
The safest arms are not my own
I can't carry the weight of
what I can't even hold
Can we be honest to each other
so I can tell the truth myself?
We've all tried to please the world
from inside our hollow shell
I'm not satisfied with happiness,
not satisfied with hell
Can we be honest to each other?
I'm not happy here with myself
"Counting down the hours
till the sun comes up again,
A repeat of the yesterday
that I'm stuck within.
Maybe I need urgency,
maybe medicine,
It's a hard pill to swallow
when you feel like a
raindrop in an ocean."
Can we be honest to each other
so I can tell the truth myself?
We've all tried to please
the world from inside our hollow shell
I'm not satisfied with happiness,
not satisfied with hell
Can we be honest to each other?
I'm not happy here with myself
Forget about yesterday, it's moved on from you
Live without the doubt that just won't go away
We've all stood at the edge,
contemplated jumping
A leap of fear, loss of faith, we can't go
You see a face you think you know
But it's not the one I show
I feel more, more at home
In the places I don't know
I don't belong to my mistakes
Tired of sleeping wide awake
It's killing me slowly
It's crowded and lonely
Even when I crawl I drag my feet
When did the world take hold of me?
It's killing me slowly
It's crowded and lonely
I can't feel at all
I can't feel at all
I find myself back here again
But I'm not empty-handed
I'm not leaving, I'm not done
I'm not the kind that would run
Being lost is a lovely place
To find yourself again
You see a face you think you know
But it's not the one I show
I feel more, more at home
In the places I don't know
I don't belong to my mistakes
Tired of sleeping wide awake
It's killing me slowly
It's crowded and lonely
Even when I crawl I drag my feet
When did the world take hold of me?
It's killing me slowly
It's crowded and lonely
I can't feel at all
I owe another shot to the world
It took a shot at me and missed
I owe another chance to myself
Take me back to the beginning
We all come from something
I belong to my mistakes
Tired of sleeping wide awake
It's killing me slowly
It's crowded and lonely
Even when I crawl I drag my feet
When did the world take hold of me?
It's killing me slowly
It's crowded and lonely
I can't feel at all
I can't feel at all
I recognize that smell, it's heaven scent
It reminds me of bridges I've been burning
And I have been abusing things and I am using
Every excuse to leave, but I just want you to stay
And I want to say goodbye,
but in my head I said goodnight
I always find a way to mess up
good things in my life
Close your eyes on the chapter
and this night
I know you've tried to read me,
but I threw that page away, away
Maybe if we could just start over
Go back to when we were
just perfect strangers
I could reintroduce myself
As someone I'm a hell
of a lot more happy with
And I want to say goodbye,
but in my head I said goodnight
I'll always find a way to mess up
good things in my life
Close your eyes on the chapter
and this night
I know you've tried to read me,
but I threw that page away, oh-oh
But I threw that page away
Are these the saddest stories
Because they're told the most?
Ooh, let's keep it at goodnight
I always find a way to mess up
good things in my life
Close your eyes on the chapter
and this night
I know you've tried to read me,
but I threw that page away
Close your eyes, say goodnight
Close your eyes, say goodnight
At the rate things are going,
it's getting hard to breathe
And if I don't leave soon,
this will be the death of me
Another chapter of my life
I keep keeping myself from sharing
You're the compass I still follow,
there's no gravity
I'm like a broken vessel,
but I didn't sink in the sea
I'm drowning now
cause I let you inside of me
I wanna feel the fire again, fire again
The flame is gone and all I want
Is the fire again, fire again
The most beautiful hell I've ever seen
Suffocating here on dry land
While you're somewhere
pushing somebody else in
I bought in, you were oh so deep
But I won't dive again
I'm like a broken vessel,
but I didn't sink in the sea
I'm drowning now
cause I let you inside of me
I wanna feel the fire again, fire again
The flame is gone and all I want
Is the fire again, fire again
The most beautiful hell I've ever seen
I wanna feel the fire again
The most beautiful hell I've ever been
I'm like a broken vessel,
but I didn't sink in the sea
I'm drowning now
cause I let you inside of me
There are things that I'm dying to tell you
About things that are killing me to say
And I know that I don't want to lose you
But we both know I'll push you away
Fauxtographic memory
A mind that's still developing
I turn my back on all I see
Cause everything feels make believe
Fauxtographic memory
A mind that's still developing
I turn my back on all I see
Cause everything feels make believe
You tried to stay, I made you leave
And made the world give up on me
I can't accept reality
Cause everything feels make believe
Cause everything feels make believe
I keep swallowing the hell
so you don't stomach it
From what it's like to be around
someone that lives like this
I keep losing sleep in beds
still made from soaking sheets
And I'm still haunted
by the ghosts of people still breathing
I already hate the words,
they're not a thing we even share
Stop looking for a metaphor,
it isn't there
Fauxtographic memory
A mind that's still developing
I turn my back on all I see
Cause everything feels make believe
You tried to stay, I made you leave
And made the world give up on me
I can't accept reality
Cause everything feels make believe
Cause everything feels make believe
You're wasting away
You'll have to learn to love within
You'll have to learn to live without
You're wasting away
You'll have to learn to love within
You'll have to learn to live without
You're wasting away
Fauxtographic memory
A mind that's still developing
I turn my back on all I see
Cause everything feels make believe
You tried to stay, I made you leave
And made the world give up on me
I can't accept reality
Cause everything feels make believe
Turn me upside down like an hourglass
Time is running out and
too much time has passed
Slipping through the fingers
of calloused idle hands
Grasping for a breath
while choking on the sand
Maybe I'm too scared to stand in my own skin
Maybe I've become transparent
If I only have one life left to leave
Get me out of my own head,
but keep me in my body
This is the lie that I believe
Always blaming someone else,
but I do this to myself
You're suffocating me with positivity
But either way, it's still fucking suffocating
I refuse to be what you want from me
I can't be perfect, but tell me what the fuck is perfect anyways?
If I only have one life left to leave
Get me out of my own head,
but keep me in my body
This is the lie that I believe
Always blaming someone else,
but I do this to myself
I do this to myself
I do this to myself
It's okay to not be okay
It's okay to feel this way
It's okay to feel this way
It's okay to feel this way
I'd rather live than die this way
I'd rather give than take away
If I only have one life left to leave
Get me out of my own head,
but keep me in my body
This is the lie that I believe
Always blaming someone else,
but I do this to myself
It's okay to feel this way
It's okay to feel this way
It's okay to feel this way
It's okay to feel this way
'Cause everything feels make believe